I understand you completely since im in the same boat right now. Except mine might be worse since ive been going to collage since 2005 and i still don't know what i want to do with my career and if i will even graduate. I cant get a job either since nobody will seem to hire me, i will call and bug the place too just to show them i have the determination for this job, but to no avail. Wow now im depressed lol, but don't feel bad since things could be worse and there is still plenty of time for things to turn around. I hope i didn't depress you even more, but consider yourself lucky that you have at least had a relationship with someone a year ago, ive been a loner my whole life and it sucks.

@Gohansephiroth: I know what you mean and yeah it does suck being a loner all your life.

@yurichi87: I'm sorry to hear that and I know how you feeling about not knowing what you are living for but you will find out what you want to do in life. Trust me. It might come to you over night, might not. It might even come to you in Gamespot....who knows(thats actually how it worked for me....strangely enough) but i'm not going to flood the comment on how that came to be. Don't be afraid to ask though. I have no shame of it.

You will pull through, I believe in you.

It's okay, venting is good for you and it's perfectly normal to get frustrated about your life when times seem tough. You just have to remember that it's never too late for you to turn things around for yourself. You just need to sit down, evaluate your options, and dedicate your time to something that you feel you can do, even if you don't like it, bite the bullet. That's life sometimes, you know? What helped me out of my own funk was realizing that focusing on "being in the funk" was pointless and it could only lead me further down, so I made a decision to focus on positive things, what I could do to improve my situation. My life improved a ton in less than a year, a lot of life is mindset!

I hope I don't sound too corny.

Thats what blogs are for, when I first came here, I tended to just write all my pent up anger by using my blogs. Theres no need to be sad or deppressed. There are people out there that have it way worse, be content and happy. We all have hard times, but its up to you if you wanna crawl out of that hole...

You are going through a nasty funk. I am no stranger to them, that's for sure. Vent away all you want. Let it out. Don't keep all that stuff inside you. Just know that things WILL get better. Life is always up and down. Just surround yourself with good people and remember that you have people here that are rooting for you too.

We're all in the same boat here cuz of the bad economy, most of people where I work at got laid off, and will never get call back.... dont know how long Im gonna last there, maybe one more year they say.... Im so worry too myself, I got house, car, all the bills. if no work, how am I gonna pay the bills?
Just hang on okay, things will only get better.... wish you the best.

Sorry to hear that. Its hard trying to find a job where I'm at but I'm sure things are bound to change soon. I mean come on we got Obama taking care of the economy Just turn that frown upside down.

It's ok to vent; everyone goes through a funk or feels hopeless from time to time. Times are tough right now. Fighting through times like these and becoming determined not to feel this way is what makes us stronger. You are still young and have time to find your path, so don't give up hope. As far as relationships, well I don't know you as a person but I can say that based on your writings and photos, a man would be really stupid not to be very happy to have you with him. Granted, there are a lot of stupid guys out there, but I'm sure it's only a matter of time before you find one that isn't and can see what's up.

I do want to give some unsolicited advice on college though, hopefully it's not out of line -- try if you can to tough it out and see if you can get through it. I thought college sucked too, I really did. But I toughed it out and even though it took five years and cost me $20,000 in loans (ugh), I am happy I did it because it can open up doors. I'm the only one of my brothers who has a degree, and I'm the only one right now that has secure employment. Staying in college can also help put you on a direction. Whatever you do, try to keep your head up and go after what you want. I'm someone who's never done that, and I've waited too long and now I don't know what to do. I'll do whatever I can to prevent someone from becoming like me so stay strong and don't let the world beat you.

Sorry to hear about all that, i just went through all that and hope it doesnt last long for you . Good luck finding a job !!! hard to stay postiive but things always get beter. good luck rant away it helps to get it out.

Ya know, I went through the same thing when I was 21...More things seemed to be falling apart rather than coming together, but you'll make it through. Don't let stuff like this get to you, just try to do something positive to counteract it. If you wanna talk/vent about it, let me or someone else know, I'm sure there are plenty of folks here that would be a willing ear.

dont worry it may just be a phase im going through it too but except the college part

dont be depressed everyone goes through rough patches and everything works out in the end. When ever I feel bad I just do something completley random and crazey and that usually cheers me up. yesterday I tried to do a back flip and then I told some girls I rule at pac-man

It really is mind over matter...I know you'll feel better soon. If you wanna go back to college it's always possible, with the help of loans and FAFSA, and friends can always lend a hand too, of course.

I also haven't been in a relationship for a while now, it actually hasn't even been a year for me...it really sucked at first, I was really hung over it. Ate at me everyday. But I slowly came to realize that there are other things to be done in life other than moping over the one girl you care for.

Well, I guess I'm out of advice, hope that helps...

I had this crap happen to me at age 15. I know - it sounds like too young of an age to be going through this, but I was seriously depressed to a point where I was seeking medical help and experienced physical/mental trauma.

**** sucks, but life always defaults to one thing: enjoying every moment. For every one thing that brings you down, find 5 things to look forward to. They can be small things or big things.

For example, I just royally screwed up a provincial exam: Good news? Summer started. My preordered copy of BlazBlue is a week away. I'm raking in some good dough from my tutoring job - and am now able to take my family out to dinner and buy them some nice things. That one negative thing won't take me down; life's being good to you - just focus on it.

I went through the exact same situation when I was 21. I spent a year and a half in college with the same realizations and worked two years in BB. I was forced out of that job, instead of being laid off, though. Luckily, I had another job at the time and just switched to that one full time. Don't worry, you'll make it.

Your still young so things will get better for you before ya know it. I willing to bet that in a few months time you will be posting another blog about how your life has turned around and how great things are.
Im sure you will meet a guy in no time too cause from what i hear "You really have a nice ass.." (JOKE)