When I put spaces between paragraphs and then post the blog they (the spaces) disappear. Sometimes they're there, sometimes they aren't there. It's driving me mad. It isn't really that big of a deal but I think not understanding why it's doing that is the reason why I'm going crazy. I somehow managed to fixed my previous blogs but I can't remember if I figured something out or if it just happened. Has anyone else ever had this problem?

I'm on a mission to try and better myself. I tend to run away from everything. Whether it be people, a book, a course or trying to improve myself - I never finish things, well most of the time. I'm really getting sick and tired of it because it's preventing me from achieving anyhting. I get bored easily and I think I'm afraid of a lot of things. I've read (or rather tried reading) lots of books, searched websites and asked for help but I always get stuck at the same place. I know this is going to sound sad but I picked up this old book from the library. It isn't really that old and it is a very popular book. I kept hearing about it but I thought it wouldn't help. I know what is stopping me but I seem unable to move. It's called 'Feel The Fear And Do It Anyway'. I know it sounds like one of those self-help books trying to make a quick buck but it has a lot of useful information in it and the author went through it herself. It is (kind of) working but I got in to trouble yesterday. I felt really sad and it felt like I had taken a few step backwards. However, thinking about it today, I don't think I have. I'm bound to have times like this because you can't be magically better all of a sudden. It takes a lot of time and repetition, not only that but, it's normal to have blue days. Although, I wouldn't really categorise yesterday's feeling as just being 'blue'.

I just don't want to repeat what I normally do in the past. I don't want to get stuck and retreat again. If anyone has felt like this it would be nice to hear from you and find out what you did to get past it.

I have been blogging for a while now and haven't received any comments. I comment on other blogs, especially if they haven't received many replies. Perhaps my blog is c***?! There must be someone out there willing to post a reply? Gulp!