I think i just experienced one of the most awkward moments in my life....

During the entire break (like 15-20 min) i talked with tyler about different things....and then i sat back down and this girl next to me who is soo crushing on tyler but doesnt even talk to him turns to me and sasy, "So you and tyler, huh?"

Me: uhhhh....what?

Girl:You guys look like sucha couple.

Me: *awkwardly flustered* Oh...

Girl: If u guyz got married...think of the children!

At this point i just ignored the girl. She stated the most awkward thing of life...its a good thing Tyler wasnt there...that would just have made it ten times worst

My friends and I went out to eat for Halloween (Annie and I went in our costumes cuz we're cool like that) Jake was there too and apparently he still likes me even tho i completely denied his kiss and feelings. SO i pretended i wanted to see this old posteron the wall and sat on the other side of the table across from Annie and Ben. Then Tyler walked in late cuz of football and the next open seat was next to me!! (squueee) so i got to talk to him alot all night.

Then some of us went back to watch scary movies...but tyler couldnt stay late because of the SATs but this is the good part:

We were all sort of clustered together because people were leaving...now Tyler is terrible at saying goodbye to people...but at the time i was closest to him and he turned and hugged me AND he said by...but then he shuffled off by saying..."im gunna give other people hugs"...DIES

we r talking more AND a hug??? wow...lol

does this seem good? im crossing my fingers that things willl just improve!!!!

~xpg

HAPPY HALLOWEEN!

Okay well Jake started to like me but then he got the message through Annie (this is when i love her!) that I didn't feel the same way. And get this...he is SOOOO nice. Even tho I totally dumped him he STILL let me borrow his Sum41 CD! how cool is that? so now Jake is my biffle.

Now for little news that makes me really happy. Tyler initiated a conversation with me the other day! gasp!

He was like "Hey, I saw you the other day driving to school"

Me: "Really?"

Him "Yea I was banging on the windows and everything. Going HEY! HEy!, but u kept on looking straight ahead." * he proceeds to imitate this.

Me laughing, "Really, wow I guess I just was really focused."

HIm: "Yeah, you drive an acura right?"

Me: "Uhhhh.....no I drive a mini van"

Him: OMG! That-

ME: " That was a completly different girl!" *We both start cracking up*

THE END...i was so happy, this means its getting easier to talk to me right? *wiggles eyebros* but then i did the stupid thing and try and text him about it but he didnt respond! He's terrible texter...u can't tell what he's thinking at all...which is why i always freak out and told myself i will never initiate a text convo with him....I WILL DO THAT FROM NOW ON! sry I'm just trying to convince myself here...

~xpg

Should I tell my mom about my super crush Tyler?

Okay...i might sound like I'm obsesed with him here...but this is only because I have no outlet for it. I mean I haven't told a soul about this. I can't tell Marie because we all went to school together and she thinks that i still hate him (this oddly reminds me of hey arnold...). I can't tell Annie, because even tho she has a boyfriend , i don't know if she's over him yet (she's weirdly attached to him). And none of my other friends are even apart of this group....or i'm not personally close to them. So I think before i go psycho, i need to tell somebody...and i tell my mom everything.

on anothernote...i came home sick today (boo hum) but the good news is that i'm slowly bringing up my precal grade from a C- to hopefully something higher than a C-

I need to do hw...but I really feel like vegging out

~xpg