Hey went out again tonight, was awsome really!

it was like a field full of people and lots and lots of booze, ive never had such a good time in ages, i literly had to hold my guy/mates hand all the way back as i was so determind to have a piss,haha!

and my brother was squishing me so much i really felt like bursting out, the jeep was full of people, haha, it was awsome, we were telling each other old history( awsome)And my x was in the car, one story came and it was about us. i miss him soo much, and i cant believe i left a desent guy for a total wanker! ...if only i could go back to time, i would change it completely....well anyway back to the story all of my guy/mates were makign me laught so much, they knew i wanted to go to the loo so badly, they just wanted to make me suffer and laugh about it, hehe!

Well any way i could call this the best night of the year, spending time with my ex and having a laugh with his mates, and on the way back we decided that we wanted to go to a different club, so my x boyfriends mate had to drive is back, untill half the people said that they wanted to go home for the rest of the night after getting lost for an hour,haha!

But spending time with my special old mates brought so much memories and special moments that i had forgotten, and it made it worth getting lost, it made it worth while!

anyway speak soon xannax xoxo

Well im going o start writing my life story on here as my diary, as i cant do my own diary book( you know family, the would try and do anything to read through your personal belongings) and i know they would never come on this website! so here i am! feel free to read!

well i went out tonight on a thursday night, as many people talk about how good it is on a thursday night! Haha and this 55 year old man was out, he was trying to get with every young girl out there, if you ask me i kinda feel sorry for the poor guy! anyway i had to leave early as me brother in law had to go home early, and it was my only lift home. I don't know why but after i got home tonight, i suddenly felt uncomfortable, as that all i could think of was the past, it really made me feel a little cold and sad. The worst thing that you can think of is remembering that your ex brother in law trying to get with you when your sister/ his girlfriend is in the next room, you feel sick, wondering if you should tell her or not, and wondering if you should tell her wether hes a scum bag or not, if you should tell her if he is a lying cheat of a boyfriend, i mean how can you tell your own sister that her boyfriend tried to get into your pants. its disgusting and really uncomfortable! well any way she atleast dumped him and found a new man, if only she knew what i knew! Im glad she found a new man, i don't have to think about her getting hurt, i would do anything to protect my older sister!

Once i nearly got thrown out of my college for protecting my sister, this girl just attacked my sister for complete no reason, so of course i jumped in to help her, i mean what kind of a sister would i be if i watched my sister get beaten to death, so anyway my college found out and threatend to chuck me out (i really dont blame them as i am doing child and health care, i would totally understand) anyway luckely i got away with it, as the B!TCH that attacked my sister had owned up to the police so i was good to go!

Speaking about college, i really cant wait until i pass, if i do, ive really just had enough of my tutors, most of them are ok, only most of them you cant bare! if only you could teach youself, haha! Well im really excited about next year as i would be 18 and that maens my mam lets me go to america--And that is my dream!.....After koris death( RIP MY KORI BABE!) Thats all i have been thinking about is going to america to see where she had been brought up, i am so excited as she was a wonderfull mum, friend and wife i cant wait to see her home and visit her grave one day!

Rite i have been babling on too much, not a good sign,haha! been drinking too much so im sorry for the miss spelling

write soon my fellow readers xoxox

oh and p.s kori i pulled

R.I.P. kori

ive only found out what happend to you,you will always be missed babe, bu a lot of us!
i can't believe you'r gone!!

my thoughts will be with you ffamily and ffriends!
an i cant believe you were pregnant ,when i heared,my eyes filled with tears.
all our chats on msn and tv.com!

i was wondering why u were never online any more and why u wudnt reply to any of my emails andall this time you were gone!! x x

you will always be missed but never forgotten babe!

my heart goes out to her husband,and her children!
also britt and tricia...you were loved by her a lot, she kept on talking about you on msn,she said she couldant wait to go on a trip with you guyz and she couldant wait to meet yopu both in person!
its sad that she never got to!!

R.I.P. KORI!!! X X X X X X X X X X X X X