In case you don't know, I'm spending a year on folkhighschool, which is a school where there are no exams and no grades. The slogan is that on folkhighschool we learn life, though most of it comes down to your hobbies (I'm on sports). I don't want anyone at my school to read this blog, but chances are they doesn't (unless they google me and check out page 4). Anyways, I really need someone to talk or write to, preferably someone I don't know in real life.

(Here's some folk high school propaganda for you)

I've got it bad, I really have. Have you ever liked a girl so much that just seeing her or hear her voice make you feel like your floating inside? That's how it is. And in many ways, it doesn't even make sense. If you had asked me before I met her, what I look for in a girl, I'd say someone that is natural, and doesn't try to change the way she looks. I don't really understand why people would wear piercings. She has piercings, though, and her hair-colour is a dark red and somewhat brown colour that looks far from natural. I'd say it might be her smile that does the trick.

She is a girl that doesn't take herself too seriously and aren't afraid of having fun. The first week on school, the whole school was at a four days long trip into the forest. There was little to do so we stood in a ring and played games like sheriff (many different versions), zip zap and kimsimsey. She and I was one of those who were playing every single time. Also, when there is soccer matches going on, she plays with a lot of enthusiasm, though she obviously hasn't played it much.

I don't know very much about her, but more than I know about most of the others at my school. You see, on the trip, we were both in the group that walked fastest, so I got to talk to her a little and overhear what she said to others. I know she come from a small village, that she is a chocoholic (though I guess 90 percent of all women are), that she is a fan of Final Fantasy games and Pixar movies and that she has a boyfriend.

Yeah, the last one is kind of a downer, but as strange as it might sound, I like it that way. All the pressure is off, and I don't have to man up and ask her out. So I can just enjoy seeing her everyday and hearing her voice. It makes me so strangely happy. To see her face every day… To here her voice, and maybe even talk to her… It just makes me happy. Even though it would be incredible to get to know her better, it is enough for me. Every time I go to eat breakfast, dinner or supper I hope that she will be eating at the same time and that I'll see her around. Sadly she's on dance and I'm on sports, so we only have cIasses together at Fridays, yet she makes me happy.

Wow, I must sound desperate. I could keep on blable for a while, but I think I'll just cut it there.