AAHHHHH!!!! I am so frustrated with myself! I got a D1 scholarship to play volleyball and I am showing the coaches absolutely nothing! A starting OH spot is available, but I can't pull my head out of my ass long enough to show the coaches that I can fill that spot! SO FRUSTRATING!! I get so nervous before every practice and feel like I'm going to puke (and since we are going through 2-a-days that's at least twice a day...)! I just want to have confidence in myself and then play and do it well so they won't be thinking "Why the hell did we give this girl money to come here? She sucks...." I WANT TO PLAY WELL!!!!!!!
Thanks for dealing with my venting... 