I can't even really say why I decided to do this blog, but it was something I needed to do. I took some liberties with the lyrics. The entire lyrics of the 2 songs used are not complete. If you want them I can PM them to you. First song is Kelly Clarkson "Because of You" http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=73-V2A3NuWo and second is Chantal Kreviazuk "In This Life" http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6jX7i0MG0uk Text in bold and italics are the lyrics. Text in red is my message.

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
We all have experiences that affect our lives daily.

Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Many that that make us want to play it safe.

Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

So much that we loose faith and trust in others. And it can make us even learn to not trust ourselves.
I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out

And it manifests. So badly that someone notices.
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes

You even force yourself to be so strong. To show emotion is to be weak.
I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
So you eventually put on a mask to cover how much you are hurting.
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk

And it doesn't stop.
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Ever.

Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid
Even though you want it to, the fear doesn't allow you to.
Because of you
I try my hardest just to forget everything
But forgetting is never that easy.

Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Your fears won't allow you to let someone in. Anyone.

Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty

It gets so bad that you push people away and they don't come back.
Because of you
I am afraid

Hopefully for anyone who has ever felt like this or can identify so far you have or will someone that will just allow you to be open and will push back until you stop (pushing them away). And you just...

Let me show you what I'm made of

You allow someone to see the real you. All of you.
Good intentions are not enough
Not just the mask you hide behind.

To get me through today
And this life
Because we all need that someone.

You're in the basement
W a t c h i n g the TV
I'm on the second floor
Watching the ceiling
And there is that someone no matter how far apart you are from them.

We sleep underneath the same big sky at night
And dream the same dream we can fly
We all want the many of the same things and dream about the same things.

You can run from me
And you can hide from me
But I am right beside you
In this life
But now matter how much you push away or want to hide, I will always be there.

Let me tell you who you really are
You're my comfort
You're not a superstar
You may not be famous, but you bring me such comfort. All of you do.

Life can reach up and bring you back down
Onto the ground
And give you everything you dream about
Life can throw you surprises, good and bad. In the end, dreams can really come true. And I wish that for every single on of you.

You can run from me
And you can hide from me
But I am right beside you
In this life
I will never walk away from our friendship. Through good times and bad. Even time passes by until we speak to each other. I will always be there. Even if you push and want to hide. I will not leave.

I'll give you all the things that I'd never get
Give you all I have and have no regrets
I will give you the love and support of my friendship that I haven't received. I will share my experiences. I will give and share things with no regret in doing them. Even if it ends badly.

You can run from me
And you can hide from me
But hope one day you won't. That you will have to courage to not too.

Let me show you what I'm made of

I wish for everyone who finally is tired of running or hiding.

I kept getting the censor message and spacing a word made it go away.