Before I get into this verrrrrrrrrrry angry rant I like to say I do not blame mods for why I am angry. And for not following the rules I dont mean something silly like accidenetly double posting. The site at times has not allowed members to edit, etc. Anyhoo, now on to the show ......

I am realllllly beyond angry. Insert any and every possible swear word right now. Tonight was the last straw. New threads in which the topic should have been in a spoiler thread. I am not spoiler free for that show but I respect those who are, and what was done is f****** up. I would beyond love to mention names. Be a nasty son of a b*** and rant off them. But I wont. Likely it would violate some rule I am not aware of. And like others I like to follow rules. I am not perfect. far from it. But if I have a question I ask someone who would know or who to ask.

One thing I will say is what forum I am speaking of. CSI Miami. There has been issues I have had on others but at least up to this point I just feel they are pointless threads and should have been done as either as a blog or asked/posted in a current thread. Nothing that at least violates spoiler rules. That forum is NCIS. So NCIS thread poster members, I beg of you think b4 you start a new thread and for the love of all holy do *not* start one that could be considered a spoiler. When in doubt PM a mod or post it in the spoiler thread. I will report you. And trust me I dont like doing that. B/c I know I will make enimies for doing it. But if I have to be the bad guy b/c others might not want to speak up, I am honored to do so.

I have done a rant on this before. Dont know if the blog got deleted when blogs disappeared but tonight was the absolute topper. And some wil lbe wondering why I am being so melodramtic and speaking out. B/c it has to stop. And what many of you dont know if I have thought many times to leav this site b/c of it. And it may come to that. The shear disrespect to others and what almost seems like stupidity of some posters. And I dont like to think either of any of you.

I wish I knew what to say or do to prevent this or stop this. B/c I really do believe if more spoke out or sent PM's to the mods this could be better controlled. I know Mods have a life outside of controlling the threads and they cant quickly make it all better. That's why I dont blame any of you.

So I beg each and every person that reads this whether you comment or not think about what you are doing. And let you mods know what is going on. Please!!!

End of rant b/c there is nothing more I can say.

I can't even really say why I decided to do this blog, but it was something I needed to do. I took some liberties with the lyrics. The entire lyrics of the 2 songs used are not complete. If you want them I can PM them to you. First song is Kelly Clarkson "Because of You" http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=73-V2A3NuWo and second is Chantal Kreviazuk "In This Life" http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6jX7i0MG0uk Text in bold and italics are the lyrics. Text in red is my message.

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
We all have experiences that affect our lives daily.

Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Many that that make us want to play it safe.

Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

So much that we loose faith and trust in others. And it can make us even learn to not trust ourselves.
I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out

And it manifests. So badly that someone notices.
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes

You even force yourself to be so strong. To show emotion is to be weak.
I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
So you eventually put on a mask to cover how much you are hurting.
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk

And it doesn't stop.
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Ever.

Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid
Even though you want it to, the fear doesn't allow you to.
Because of you
I try my hardest just to forget everything
But forgetting is never that easy.

Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Your fears won't allow you to let someone in. Anyone.

Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty

It gets so bad that you push people away and they don't come back.
Because of you
I am afraid

Hopefully for anyone who has ever felt like this or can identify so far you have or will someone that will just allow you to be open and will push back until you stop (pushing them away). And you just...

Let me show you what I'm made of

You allow someone to see the real you. All of you.
Good intentions are not enough
Not just the mask you hide behind.

To get me through today
And this life
Because we all need that someone.

You're in the basement
W a t c h i n g the TV
I'm on the second floor
Watching the ceiling
And there is that someone no matter how far apart you are from them.

We sleep underneath the same big sky at night
And dream the same dream we can fly
We all want the many of the same things and dream about the same things.

You can run from me
And you can hide from me
But I am right beside you
In this life
But now matter how much you push away or want to hide, I will always be there.

Let me tell you who you really are
You're my comfort
You're not a superstar
You may not be famous, but you bring me such comfort. All of you do.

Life can reach up and bring you back down
Onto the ground
And give you everything you dream about
Life can throw you surprises, good and bad. In the end, dreams can really come true. And I wish that for every single on of you.

You can run from me
And you can hide from me
But I am right beside you
In this life
I will never walk away from our friendship. Through good times and bad. Even time passes by until we speak to each other. I will always be there. Even if you push and want to hide. I will not leave.

I'll give you all the things that I'd never get
Give you all I have and have no regrets
I will give you the love and support of my friendship that I haven't received. I will share my experiences. I will give and share things with no regret in doing them. Even if it ends badly.

You can run from me
And you can hide from me
But hope one day you won't. That you will have to courage to not too.

Let me show you what I'm made of

I wish for everyone who finally is tired of running or hiding.

I kept getting the censor message and spacing a word made it go away.

TIVA (NCIS) and Booth and Bones (BONES)

This isn't my normal type of music I listen to. But it was on a mix CD I bought. And every time I listen to it, I can't help but think of two ships I love. And I can even see them singing it together. *hint, hint to TPTB. At least for one ship that both people have sung and done it well* Anyhoo... Black text is the lyrics and color text are my comments in regards to the 2 ships. Colored italics are in reference to moments that they have run to each other. One though is one I hope to have happen. Fans of both shows hopefully you will figure out what each is referring to. If you (or even non fans) can't I will PM you to clarify.

ENJOY!

Lady Antebellum: I Run To You http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Rs38lKxmtI4

I run from hate
I run from prejudice
I run from pessimists
But I run too late
They fight against this every time they go out. But they run away from it too.

I run my life
Or is it running me?
Run from my past
I run too fast
Or too slow it seems
They run from things in their own lives. Secrets and demons from their past. Sometimes fast enough. Other times not enough.

[Bridge]
When lies become the truth
That's when I run to you
And when they don't run fast enough and the lies, secrets, or demons catch up to them. But they turn and run to the other. When cases bring up things they've done in the past. When you were in danger & to save you. When family members are in trouble with the law. When rescue came to get you. When you think your partner is in danger. When you finally understand he was telling you the truth. When they go undercover or I should say undercovers (literally). When you are tired of pretending.

[Chorus]
This world keeps spinning faster
To a new disaster, so I run to you
I run to you, Baby
Each day and each case makes them face all the evil in the world. So they run to each other.

When it all starts coming undone
Baby, you're the only one I run to
I run to you
And time and time again they run to each other. For advice. For solace.

We run on fumes
Your life and mine
Like the sands of time
Slippin' right on through
Each time out their lives are at stake. Their lives are in each other's. And hopefully each time they come out alive.

[Bridge]
Our love's the only truth
That's why I run to you
Their love for each other as friends, teammates is the only thing they know to be. And that is why they run to each other. But that love came from trust. And one day they will see and admit (hopefully) how much love they have come to have for each other.

[Chorus]
This world keeps spinning faster
To a new disaster, so I run to you
I run to you, Baby
They just keep on running to each other.

When it all starts coming undone
Baby, you're the only one I run to
I run to you
Through good times and bad.

Oh oh, oh I run to you
Just keep running....

[Chorus]
This world keeps spinning faster
To a new disaster, so I run to you
I run to you, Baby
Again and again.

When it all starts coming undone
Baby, you're the only one I run to
I run to you, I run to you
Yeah
Only to each other. Because of the love and trust they have for each other.

Oh oh, oh I run to you
I'll run to you girl
Oh Oh
To be there as a friend, as a partner. And one day as more.

I always run to you
Run to you
Run to

In the end they will ALWAYS run to each other. ALWAYS!

Hopefully the spacing didnt get too crazy. Does anyone elses blogs get messed up in the format??? Anyhoo... Hope you enjoyed reading this. Please leaves me a review. Thanks!!!

PS~ For those that read my other blog that involved lyrics will not be re-posted. I had deleted from my computer and on gamspot its gone too.