aaronmullan and AirGuitarist87 have tagged me!

Now for my five facts:

1. For the most part I'm the same online and offline: quiet, reserved, friendly, and boring. However, offline I'm even more quiet/shy, but I am rather humorous. I know I make boring posts that are usually devoid of humor, but when I'm out with my friends, I love to make jokes. I guess my humor doesn't really work as well on the internet.

2. I am quite tall for a girl at roughly 6'0''.

3. Recently I've become rather obsessed with Elliott Smith's music. I literally can't stop listening to him, as those of you who are friends with me on Last FM may have noticed. He's just a brilliant musician and I think almost anyone could appreciate his music, except for those who simply can't stand softer rock (I refuse to say "soft rock" because of the negative connotations that go along with that). Here are a few excellent examples of his music if you're interested: King's Crossing, Waltz #2 (XO), Junk Bond Trader, Son of Sam, and Tomorrow Tomorrow. If you listened, tell me what you thought!

4. I live in Fargo, North Dakota, and I actually do like it. It's kind of like the movie Fargo, but the movie's a bit exaggerated...though I do adore it. The only problem with it is that it's really boring here, and I'm looking forward to a change in location in the future. I'm thinking...Philadelphia.

5. I'm Irish, Norwegian, Scottish, and English. I'd love to visit all of the countries from which my ancestors hailed, but especially Ireland. I've had a burning desire to go there for as long as I can remember.

Well, that was fun. I'll tag five people in the comments in a bit.

I feel like the majority of my forum posts lately have been really whiny, depressing, etc., and no one likes a downer. I just wanted to apologize for that.

I'm not normally so upfront about that sort of thing and I'm not normally so whiny, but there have just been a lot of things going on in my life lately that have caused me to feel very stressed and depressed, and I've noticed that it's been showing through in a lot of my posts...so I thought I'd apologize. I'm sure it's gotten annoying to those who've noticed.

I shouldn't take all of my frustrations out in my posts because no one likes being around someone who's always down.

From now on I'll try to be less depressing.

Lastly I'd like to say thank you to everyone who commented on my last blog entry. I appreciated all of the advice and kind words! College is overwhelming for everyone, so it's nice to hear some tips from people who've been there and who are currently there.

I felt like blogging and figured that I should since a couple of people have inquired about college.

First, though, I'd like to say thanks to everyone who posted in my 10K post party thread and who commented on my last blog! I received some really nice comments. I had no idea that people even really knew who I am, let alone had such nice opinions. It really was nice, so thank you.

College has been okay so far. It's been a bit stressful, but it's alright. I think I like it better than I liked high school, though I do miss a few things about high school. I miss my Latin clas.s (we'd been together since 8th grade), the Latin club, my Latin teacher, my band teacher, and my band clas.s It's been hard not having Latin and band in my schedule. Luckily I'll be in band next semester! I absolutely cannot wait.

I like Computer Science (my major), but I wish I were better at math. I could be better, and the only reason I'm not better is because I'm lazy. I am just so lazy. I have a lot of ambition, but I completely lack motivation. I really thought that I'd be more motivated in college, but then I realized that you can't just suddenly become so motivated. You have to gradually develop good habits and gradually kick the bad habits. It's not something that can happen overnight.

My clas.ses are pretty interesting and I like all of my professors. My grades are okay right now, but I do need to buckle down in pre-calc and programming...now.

I haven't really made any friends. I occasionally make small talk with people in my clas.ses, but I haven't made any friends... I don't know. I like keeping to myself. Not long ago I was all stressed out about making friends, but I'm not really the type of person who needs to be surrounded by people at all times. I have a group of close friends who are all still in town, and I'm good with that. I also have a large circle of acquaintances, some of whom are in town and some of whom are away for college. I have friends and people in my life. I guess I just don't care enough to go out and make new friends.

I've been pretty stressed lately. School's been stressing me out and my dad's still stressing me out. He's been home from the hospital for about a month now, but he hasn't really done anything. He finally had to go back to work this Monday, and it hasn't gone well because he hasn't done anything while at home. It's just depressing and I wish I could get away from it. I'm tired of every aspect of my life being stressful.

All of the stress has been weighing heavily on my mind, and I haven't been sleeping at all lately. During the week, I usually get 1-3 hours of sleep each night, and only 5 or so on weekends. I'm so exhausted all the time.
I'm disappointed with how I've been doing in college thus far. I guess I've only been there for about a month, but I feel like I should've done more by now. I also dislike how inadequately I've been performing in my clas.ses. I get stuff done, but I'm just not doing as much as I should be.
I'm just really disappointed in myself. I've been so angry with myself lately. I've been a fairly self-destructive person for about five years, but lately it's been worse and more frequent. If you don't know what I mean by that, you can probably guess.

On a lighter note, I've seen a bunch of weird movies lately and I've fallen in love with Elliott Smith. His songs are just amazing and I can't get enough of them.
Also, I feel like I've finally made some GS friends (well, most are on TFG) and it's nice.

Lastly...I just got a new Last.fm account, so feel free to add me if you have one!

That's about all I have for now. I'm sure you're tired of my complaints anyway.