So..recently I've been presented with an interesting situation that I'm not really liking.

There's this guy in my grade at school. He IMed me using that Facebook messenger about four nights ago, I'd say. It started off as simple small talk. I think he just made a comment about my status update or something. We ended up talking for about, oh, two hours. He gave me his number.

We didn't talk the next night, but we talked again two nights later for only about 30 minutes because it was really late at night.

Late last night he sent me a Facebook message about wanting to see the Dark Knight with me since we'd both expressed interest in it during that first conversation, but I told him that I wasn't sure if I could go (partly because I felt awkward and partly because I'm going to be really busy for the rest of the month).

Well, the message was basically like... "Remember when we talked about the Dark Knight? Well, I am free on Tuesday if you'd like to go still. Um...I don't know, I'm not good at saying stuff like this, but we could make it a date if you'd like. Again, I'm not good at this sort of thing and I hope you don't think I'm being a creep. Anyway, good night. I hope we can talk again soon. "

I've heard from other people that he wants to ask me to be his girlfriend. He is really nice and we have a lot in common, but I'm honestly not interested in a relationship right now...plus I BARELY know him. We've talked TWICE on the internet... I hardly even consider us friends yet. I'm more than happy to be his friend eventually, but I think he's just really desperate for a relationship because people have been picking on him his whole life. He's kind of...unattractive and overweight and people see him as weird, but I don't really care about any of that. I'm not shallow in the least, so that's not what's bothering me. What's bothering me is that he is taking things a lot faster than I'd like to, and I'm afraid that no matter what I say, he'll feel bad and I hate making people feel bad.

It's kind of flattering to know that someone likes me because I haven't had much going on in the relationship department in a couple of years, but that's partly by choice. I'm more focused on school, having a job, extracurriculars, friends, and family than a boyfriend.

I don't know. I sent him a message back basically saying that I can't do Tuesday because I'm busy with a meeting for my Latin club, which is true---we're going on a big, ten-day trip starting on the 26th and we still have some things to go over...and since I'm an officer of the club, I have to stay later to continue to help organize things, so it really is true. I'm not just trying to get out of the date. However, I still feel bad. I don't know.

I also feel like...well, looking back on it, I maybe lead him on a bit, but it's only because I try to be really nice to people because I am a nice person and I like to be on good terms with a lot of people, so I fear that I maybe lead him on a bit... I don't know though. I didn't really flirt at all or anything... We just happened to have a lot in common and I was nice to him, and I'm pretty sure that not a lot of people are too genuinely nice to him, so it was different for him and he probably really liked it...and I'm glad that someone was finally nice to him, but I do not really want to take our blooming friendship to a higher level.

I'm not really asking for any advice or anything... I'm just kind of ranting since I've never really been in this situation before and it's striking me as very odd and very confusing.

In order for me to be in a relationship, there needs to be more than just kindness and a couple of decent Facebook chats. I don't think that's ridiculous of me. I've just...never turned anyone down before and it's weird. I've never thought that I'd have to since people don't ask me out very often, and I've been lucky that the people who've asked me out in the past were people I was pretty interested in as well. I'm not exactly attractive or extroverted and interesting or anything myself, so I just haven't had to have any dealings with this before.

Okay, I'll stop rambling now.
Thankfully my trip is coming up soon so I can just get away and not worry about it for a little while...
It'll eat away at me for a while though, because that's just how I am. =/
I do feel bad, but he should be able to get over it soon... I mean, we weren't that close at all, even though I am #2 on his top friends already.

I guess I just never thought that turning someone down would be so hard, but honestly it's about as hard as being turned down, since I've been there before once.

Well, I got a 26 on the ACT.
I'm not ashamed of my score or anything, but I'm not exactly pleased with it either.
I really wanted to get a 30 or higher.
Oh well. I can study harder and retake it in the fall.

Summer has been pretty good so far. It's been really lazy though.
I need to start studying.

I quit my job not too long ago.
Just a few more shifts and I'm out of there.
I can't wait, honestly.
I'm so tired of my absolutely DIFFICULT bosses.
I'm sick of working for them.

My birthday is coming up. =/
I'm not exactly looking forward to that, but oh well...what can ya do?

So I took the ACT today.
The English section was incredibly easy, most of the math was very easy, the reading section was somewhat tedious but pretty easy, the science was kind of challenging, and the writing was a breeze.
I think I did okay.
Regardless, I'll probably end up retaking it in the fall anyway.
I want to get at least a 30.

I FINALLY saw the new Hulk tonight!!
It was so great.
I went with a couple of friend, including the guy I've been mentioning in my recent blogs. We are totally okay now.
Anyway, the movie was amazing.
I'd been looking forward to it for a long time (mostly because of Edward Norton, to be honest), and it turned out to be just as great as I'd hoped.
It's visually amazing, the story is good, the acting is wonderful, etc.
I'd see it again in a heartbeat.

Ahhh...it finally truly feels like summer now that the ACT is over and done with.