I've said these words so many times before and I don't know whether I even deserve to say them anymore. I sat near the entrance of my dad's office building here in Sri Lanka, and I saw a couple of emaciated, stray dogs sleeping and trying to find food from a pile of garbage. The pile was also on fire, so the dogs were sniffing around the edges. They barely have a meal or even just fresh water. They drink out of a puddle of muddy water nearby.

There are also hundreds of people walking on the streets just across from the office. They stink of sweat and dirt, but they have the right to complain... Not me. I have no right to complain about the life I have. Most of the children here don't even have a proper education or a decent meal on the table when they get home. I've had a proper education and I have a meal waiting for me everyday at the same table at home. I'm overweight but I am healthy. My lungs have had the blessing of fresh air for seven years now. The people here in Sri Lanka would be lucky to get even one breath of fresh air. The pollution is disgusting and makes me wonder why life can be so cruel. I wish I could do something to help the people around me. I wish I could make them feel lucky for even just a second. I'm just one person though.

I fed one of those dogs a bit of my lunch today. I felt embarassed to go near them with so many people looking at me and wondering if I'm mad because they show no care in the world for them. I brought myself to doing it though, and I am so glad that I did. I'm sure that dog has never had a clean meal in its entire life. I can't stand to look outside the windows of our car whenever we drive around because it just depresses me. I keep thinking about the life I have and the life I used to have... The life I'm living right now.

I know that I'll always say those words. I know that I'll hate my life at times, but I should be so grateful of the life I have. I guess nobody is perfect though...

Ugh. I'm leaving to Sri Lanka this Saturday. It's a nearly seven week long trip. Dammit! I just got a break from my dad after a year of being *****ed at, and now I have to spend Christmas and New Year's with him. He's even coming back to Perth with us, so that means a lack of GameSpot and talking to friends too.

I'm sorry for mentioning this on such short notice. I've been trying to cherish the past couple of months as best as I can. I just don't want to go and I've been having these feelings that something is going to go wrong and that I'm going to regret this trip. No, it's not some Final Destination crap. I'm just worried about something else. Apparently we're going to India, Singapore and Malaysia near the end of the trip too.

No Christmas or New Year's in Australia; just humid weather and homesickness. I'll try my best to go online when I can and reply to any PMs from you guys and post the occasional blog. I'll miss GameSpot so much, but I'll miss you guys especially.

I hope you all have a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year though. I look forward to the New Year though, and being accepted into a different university. Still, it'll be weird getting used to a much larger university that's farther away from home.

Blah. I don't want to go on this trip, and I guess I'm just trying to voice my thoughts about leaving to make it even just a little bit easier.

I hope everyone is feeling well. Have a great week.

'Sup fellas?

Got some new stuff yesterday: Pretzel got Ratchet & Clank: A Crack in Time, Romesh got Ninja Gaiden Sigma 2 and I got... Uncharted 2!

I've played a few chapters of Uncharted 2 already and it just amazing. The graphics are beautiful, the sound effects and score are just grand, and the shooting, platforming, animations and everything have been kicked up a gigantic notch. I'm only in the fifth chapter and I can already tell that this is my game of the year.

From what I've seen, A Crack in Time plays like any of the previous R&C instalments. That's great but the formula looks like its aging and feels like Tools of Destruction all over again. Don't get me wrong though, I loved Tools of Destruction to bits and I know I'm going to love this game too.

I watched Romesh play a bit of the first chapter in Sigma 2 and it looks much better than the first. He actually finished the first game last week after owning it since the start of last year. The sequel looks much more slick and a bit easier (*Cough* FAIR!!! *Cough*) than its predecessor. Oh, and that whole jiggling boobs at your control thing during cutscenes is so not strange.

Oh yah, I also hit Level 28. So jah!

Happy week!