Yeah so basically i'm torn apart: my girlfriend just dumped me. let's rewind back to about a month ago.

Good friend of mine who seemed like someone i would like to spend some time with, dumped her boyfriend for reasons that were quite understandable. I was obviously the shoulder to lean on but after a while she let slip that she would enjoy "someones" cuddles. Said i wish i could but i didn't want to be a rebound to which she said too bad. O.o

2 days later she came down to Brighton (both study in brighton but she lives in london for the summer) and we decide to hang out with my Friend who came from canada to visit, my sister and her boyfriend. Was having a blast and eventually everyone went to bed except for us two. she says she wants to watch a movie but as everyone in the apartment was asleep we watched it in my room. NOTE: through all this i didn't want ANYTHING to happen because i didn't want to be the rebound. After the film was done... things got "Adults only" rated. spent a great next few days with her.

Since then she (and i to a certain extent) has been saying she should spend some time alone to get her head sorted out. But at the end of the day, we couldn't resist each other.

Finally i told her that this couldn't continue and that it's either we don't see each other, or we make this official. She decided it would be official. This was 2 weeks and 3 days ago. Happy times!

today she told me she thought it would get better but it hasn't and she really needs to get her head sorted alone and that our relationship still felt weird. Dumped.

The problem with all this is i can't fault her. it had to be done and it's probably for the best. She is an amazing person and what i've been waiting for. It just hurts really... I want to wait till she gets better but can i take it? going back to a menial friendship all over again?

The feelings are mutual but it's just that past relationship thats still bugging her.

Gah...