Well HI THERE, STRANGERS!!! Its been a while. Anyways, so I was actually thinking about this site, and how long its been since I've even posted a blog or posted on any forums! So I thought I'd come on and just give an update. This is also really interesting for me, because I've been thinking, I'm in YEAR 12 next year! I joined this site when I was in year 8, and I've since realised how much I have grown up since then. You know that teacher I was practically in LOVE with for the past three years? Well, this was his last year. He left three weeks ago, at the end of term. I think I'm okay, but I have been feeling kind of lonely and let down, knowing that I'm not going to see him again. But other than that, I'm okay.

My Grandad died in the end of October. There's so much that upsets me, especially knowing that Christmas is coming up, and my family is going to be really sad. There's a lot of sh!t that upsets me still, but I think I'm dealing with it okay.... I think.

GUESS WHAT! I was made editor of Pink! I was really excited, but luckily for me, nobody had tried to submit anything, because I haven't been on here in ages. But I'm going to try and come on a bit more often (TRY TO).

I think the reason I don't come on here so muchis because everyone that I used to talk to every single day has gone.... I think its the age thing. The older I got, the less I came on. All my friends on here have "moved on" I guess. I wish you guys came on more often, because you all helped me through a LOT of sh!t when I was younger. But I do understand why you don't come on more often.

Please let me know how you all are!

So my Grandad has cancer.... We've known since the start of the year, and he's been getting chemo, but this week we found out that he wasn't going to make it to Christmas. We knew that he wasn't going to survive it, but we were kind of expecting.... or hoping i guess, that he'd at least make it until next year, and then we learn that he's going to be on onxygen from now on, and he's really puffy because the cancer has spread to his liver, and now his liver is pretty much buggered.

I am so scared. I cannot imagine things without my grandad. And because I was expecting next year when they were talking about time frames at the start of the year, I am not prepared for such a small time. I have no idea how to handle any of it.

So lately I've been thinking a lot about University and where I'm going to go and what I'm going to do. We went to a Career's Expo where 7 of the 9 Uni's in Queensland had little Expo's. I decided that I'd love to go down South, like go to Brisbane or somewhere for Uni. but the only issue with that is that I live in North Queensland, and the issue would be getting from NQ to the bottom of the State. But, I've decided that I would love to go to Bond University if I decide to do something that is offered at that University. But, I'm even more confused about what I'm going to do..... RRAAAHHH!!!!! But, Bond looks like the nicest campus to be at, the accommodation is the cheapest, and its only 20 years old this year! But my parents want me to go somewhere that's closer to home, but I just want to get the hell out of here. I want to get as far away from here as I possibly can, which going to the Gold Coast seems like a really good idea. But its so hard to try and get through to my parents.

What do you guys think of Uni? Has anyone been to a Uni in QLD, or even Bond Uni? I need all the information I can get to make up my mind and stop stressing! And, in your opinion, how much money do you think is a good amount to go to Uni with?