As we all know, this week will bring the return of Supernatural! I'd say that totally deserves a blog

I've spent the last month rewatching the entire series. Started Aug 3rd and finished Sept 5th. Saw the two first seasons in 10 days, then chilled after that. Started with worrying weither I was even gonna make it, but ended up being done a week before I had to, and I could have been done sooner. I think I did good.

Figured I'd do a little review.

All in all, what I'm left with.. I dunno, I'm a little underwhelmed, but not really.. I don't like to say it but in a way I feel like Kripke, without really doing it, has sort of ruined his own show. What I mean is, it has been building up, and building up, and building up.. Which of course is amazing, but looking back, albeit the quality of the show is just the same, meaning it is still an utterly amazing show, but the impact it leaves, is getting smaller.. I like to use the finale of S2 as an exsample, coz I remember I was all over the top excited about it, and it was so awesome, and we thought we were really starting to see some of Kripke's plan, and we knew all about YED... But, turns out, we were wrong! Which isn't necessarily a bad thing. It just lowers the impact. Of course, S2 is a long time ago, lots of things have happened, we know so much more now. But that's not ethe issue. Not really. It's not what has happened, it's how it's happened... Uhm, I feel this got messy, makes more sense in my head... Further on this tho, and I know I said this upto several times during last season, everything has gotten too big now! It is too heavy! It has taken away the impact from previous serasons, but has taken on too big an impact so it's hard to comprehend it all.. And even bigger it gets...? But ah, bring it on!

Ok, on to some of my thought that I have collected during my watch, and that I still remember right now

I just can't get over John! Everytime when I rewatch, it builds up all thru S1, more or less stays with throughout S2, then sort of fades away a bit, gets a boost every now and again, especially early in S4, and still, now.. I'm left here, wondering; Just how much did John know!?!?! Supposedly, he knew. But knew what? Did he know the full extent of YED's plan? Did he know only to the end of S2, or did he know beyond that? Did he know all the way thru to the end of S4? Is it even bigger? He did not break for 10 months/100 years, which might indicate he did know. But did he really know the whole, full plan? Everything? All the way down to the Apocalypse? Why did he keep it to himself? Did he know Sam was gonna (be tempted to) go down the rute he did end up going down? The "Save him or kill him" idicates he might of. But how? And did he know that Dean might start it by going in after he got out? I could go on, but you know where this is all going. How much did John know, and how did he know it??!? Also, have to say, John, IMO, has to be the best hunter! (That we have been introduced to anyway. I know there are others that we have not heard of, and there are those we have breifly heard of, and those we have met briefly, and there are those we know...and, by what I can tell (and if John really did know...which I'm leaning towards he did), he has got to have been the best!)

Another thing that I can't let go, but I think we're supposed to get an answer to, Croatoan!??! I hope so... but I'm not sure (No spoilers please! Uhm..ok, if you know anything, you can confirm or disconfirm it, but no more info! )

One more thing: Do we know why the CRD said she could get in trouble for dealing with Dean?

The best episode: What Is and What Should Never Be! Such a fantastic episode! It is just about perfect! Honestly, it's the best episode I have ever seen, of any show, ever! It is so amazing! I love it so much!!! I mean, the story, the writing, the acting, the directing, the editing, everything! It is all so incredible! It doesn't hurt that it is kind of special with the fact that it was the first ep Kripke ever directed. But that's just a bonus. And he did a great job! And, I mean, the acting! Jensen, the guy who always deliveres, outdoes even himself on this ep! I just can't get over it! Why did he not get an award for that ep!?! And the editing/cutting! It is so amazing! Seeing Dean's reflection in the pictures/the computer. And when he sees/remembers from the warehouse. (The girl and the people hanging) The first time he saw those people hanging in his closet, I thought that they were actually there, hanging in his closet! I thought like, "what, the dude thinks he's normal, got a normal life, and then the poor kid goes off to find people hanging in his closet!?!" But then the girl was there, but then she was gone, and so were the people... Man... Aw, Dean continually broke my heart! Seriously, the first time I saw it, I cried straight thru the whole ep! From the first scene with Mary, and throughout. And occationaly I lughed. And then I cried again, then lauged, etc..such an emotional rollercoster for me this ep!I love it! I mean, the jokes were so great, and maybe, because it was so emotional, those tiny moments of humor just became all the more pleasant. But come on! "I can't believe were even related." ... "You're still my brother." "B1tch." "What are you calling me a B1tch for?!" "You're supposed to say jerk...nevermind." And the end!!! Dude is actually apologizing to his imaginationary family (and he knows they're just his imagination) for not staying! And he's willing to kill himself for something he's 90% sure of! He had everything he ever wanted, but was 90% sure it wasn't really, so he killed himself! Or, he almost did, then they confirmed it was imaginary and tried to convince him to stay, and then he apologized and... And he "wanted to stay so bad"!!! Obviously, I'm glad he didn't stay, and I appreciate all the crap that happens to them, coz the show wouldn't be what it is without it (the core of the show is to torture the main characters) but it breaks my heart every time! And there's the lawnmower scene!!! And the graveyard scene! (had to be mentioned..)And I could go on, but I'll stop myself there I LOVE THIS EPISODE!!!!!!!

The ep I wish I loved: The Rapture. I want to love this ep, but I can't. It just..it could have been so much more...Or maybe it was enough, but it could have been done so much better! I mean, it's a great story, and Misha is....well, he's Misha! But the writing just... Especially some of the dialogues.. and some of the monologues aswell.. and just general conversations.. Some is good, but some just doesn't sit right with me. Also.. the guests could have been better. Actually, the girl, Claire (Not bothered to go find their names) she did a good job. She was just sort of there as Claire, she was an important, but not a very big character, but I felt she did Castiel justice. And that is not at all a bad accomplishment by a young girl Amelia on the other hand.. Ok, to be fair, she was abit victimised by the bad writing I mentioned. It was especially the (first) dialogue(s) between her and Jimmy that felt odd to me (After he returned. Present time, not past.). I blame both the acting and the writing there.. The one when he is about to leave again, and she is sitting in the car, he's kneeling down outside the car, that one was nice tho So yes, all in all a good episode, but it could have been done better. And I wish it had been done better. I can't fully enjoy it when I know it could have been so much better! And very easily so! And I wish Castiel/Jimmy/Misha could have gotten a really fabulous episode! Considered how big and important Cas/Misha is, both to the show and the fans, he should have gotten a truely fabuous ep! He had a great story, but, unfortunately, they just weren't able to execute it..

That's all I can bring to mind right now...

How excited are we tho!?!?!?!!? I cannot wait!!!!! It's gonna be gooooooood!!!! I am fairly spoiler free, but the little bits and pieces that I know.. It's goona be gooood!!! So excited!!

(Please go wild on the comments, but no spoilers )