shadow243ali

Thursday, Jan 22, 2009

Ah, it has been ages since I've graced my prescense on this site. Then again, unless I have a soul (which I highly doubt seeing as I don't believe in the thing) and it has suddenly decided to trap itself on this site then I don't think my prescense is gonna be anywhere near it...

Yes, that was a bit random but I've decided to bring back the blog. I know I havemn't been on for ages, but life got in the way and my memory did too. So I just ended up forgetting all about my little blog. Here's to hoping that I'll remember about it this time, at least to remember it once a week.

So I'm at the library, Trading Yesterday playing in my ear and I'm wondering how I must be going crazy. Yes, I did in fact say 'CRAZY' because, you see, within the last two weeks I have realised two things.

1. I have absolutely no idea what the hell my future will consist of (Then again, when have I ever)

2. I have delved into my mind, searching for some kind of aspiration, goal, dream that I must have when it hit me, and I really mean, HIT ME. No, I did actually get hit by a book...well, technically it flew through the air and hit me in the face. Typical, if you're me but I realised when I was rubbing my sore head later that I do have something - however unrealistic it may be - but I would like to publish a book.

Yes, the idea is absurd. I don't have the patience to plan out a story, I'm most likely too lazy to keep my random mind pinned down to one story, I don't have the experience to write a book and I'm not even 18 so why the hell am I going through with this?

Because I can. Because I'm bored...probably? And because for once in my life I am going to plan something ahead of the here and now. Sure most likely it'll turn out crap, or I'll never get it finished but I'm going to write a novel nonethless. lol...

Ok, in other news (See there is other news) I, to my own astonishment, am getting passing grades, my friends and I have become a tiny bit obbsessed with Twilight and I've got a bruise on my hand with no recollection of how I got it - weird. I'm vidding again, I'm writing fanfiction again, I cheated on a test, I'm sleep deprived (can't you tell??) and yes, yes I am just randomly listing everytihing I can think of at this moment. It's the sleep deprivation...it makes you go crazy...well, it makes me go crazy. lol...