i was up all night sunday so i could go to class monday. it was just a hour 30 minute class and then my mom would pick me up. when i got home i went to sleep. i got up around 9 and have been up ever since. my mom won't pick me up until around 3. these long days are killing me. i want to sleep but it feels like i have to be exhausted now. and when i finaly get that good sleep it's about 14 hours. i feel asleep yesterday around 11 and got up around 9.

i was going through the finacial aid stuff for schol. there was one unsatified thing left about a stanford loan. i accepted becuase i wanted it done. it now says a loan interview required. i was hoping just for a check or something. i don't want to do an interview and i really don't want a loan. i already have one from sallie mae when i was at everest. if they cal i'll just cancel. i'm going to see about scholarships, never applied or got one.

i feel like there's nothing more i can add to serpent seed at the moment, but whenever i wath somehing i get mor ideas. i'm on the last subject of my five subject notebook now. there was some really early serpent seed stuff already written. i just want to write it but something is holding me back. exhaustion? depression? i don't know.