I know I'm weird. I don't blog for a while and than write 2 blog entries in one day I just wanted to write something different in this one. The other was about getting some things out. This one is the start of something new. New season of blogs. I'm going to express opinions. Still don't know about what but feel free to ask . I'm going to start talking about stuff, both important and meaningless. This is probably not a good idea but I have to occupy my mind

Religion: (starting with a big one) don't have one. Don't really believe in God. I'm not one of those persons that will call other people stupid for believing in what they believe. I just believe in something else and as long as people don't bother me with religious propaganda trying to save my soul or something we're fine. i don't believe in the after life but I'm not totally closed to the possibility that it might exist. There's no way of knowing. But I'll deal with that when my time comes I really don't like people saying that you are a bad person for not believing in what they do and condemning you to hell or something like that. Everyone should be free to have their own opinions without having to hear that they are bad persons for it.

I watched a video on youtube of Sir David Attenborough where he said some things about God that I really liked and agreed with. http://br.youtube.com/watch?v=X6Y-5CR-_hw I really think that people should be good because they want and because that's in their nature ratter than thinking that they have to behave because they have to. It's all about choice.

I'm also big fan of evolution and as a future biologist I find it weird that some people don't. It's just that for me it's so easy to find that certainty that evolution is real that I was nieve enough to think everyone else did. A friend of mine told me once that for her it wasn't like that. She couldn't be sure about it. For me that was an awakening. I still believe in it 100% but I can understand why some people won't.

that's it for today. Feel free to argue. *********************

I'm done with college. For the next month It's been a very busy year. Time really does fly. I can still remember like it was yesterday when I got the news I was in and now I'm done with year one. Many things have happened since i last wrote something meaningful. Well I have some time now so I'll try to write.

Friendships gained and friendship lost: new people were met. Nice people that I met when this new universe that is college allowed me in. Now the lost friendship story is a very messy one. Wouldn't't even know how to begin this story. I can only write about the feelings this whole mess brought. The story involves too many people for me to write about it online. Or anywhere else for that matter. It's a dead matter really but I still feel that this was due. I'm not very good with the whole expressing feelings thing. I joke and use a armor when it comes to very deep things. It's easy to teel people of things that happened but the feeling behind it are hidden. Only a few people know me well enough to read through it all (at least I hope they do). Listening is easy, knowing what to say back not so much. I've felt that a lot lately. This whole mess got me thinking (oh the jokes I could make ) and what bothered me the most wasn't the fact that a friendship was lost (of course that was very upsetting) but the fact that people I love were hurt. Probably even more than they could ever express to me. I figured that a person that could hurt me like my ex-friend did wasn't really a friend to start with so it end and it was fine on my end. It really didn't hurt as much as it should have. But my friendship with that person wasn't the only one that was over. Other people were affected. One of my best friends was really good friends with that person (well that person was part of the closest group of friends I have/had and we were all very good friends) and that friendship was over also and I know it hurt her a lot. That's really what got to me. She's ok and like me she knew things could never get back to how they were but I know it was very hard on her. More than she actually told us, probably more than she told herself if that makes any sense.

What more can I say? I'll think of something soon take care**********************