so basically this girl i liked (she liked me too) went for her ex. it sucks because her ex is a dik to her, says hateful things a lot and other stuff. at least thats what she told me. anyways, she told me she was interested in me. at first i told her we shouldnt cuz she was just gonna get with her ex again. i KNEW it was gonna happen so i didnt get attatched.

then she told me that she really wanted me and was SURE she wanted to be with me. i ACTUALLY was convinced by her that she wanted me. so today she invited me to her house to hang out. we chilled outside, held hands, kissed each other on the cheeks and the like. then her ex comes over and says he wants to talk to her. right then and there i knew i got screwed over. she came back crying sayin that shes sry and can't do 'us' anymore.

so that was my day today. if theres one thing i learned from this, its to go with ur initial feeling. cuz i KNEW she was gonna get back with him but i still thought it could work. rookie mistake. right now i feel like i can't open up easily to a girl ever again cuz i know a river of disappointment awaits me.

hope your day was better than mine. i hate being used.

im back from ecuador but i think i fell in love with a girl there. we're talkin via email now but i i have no idea what to do. she says she loves me but im really not sure. i swore to myself that i would not fall in love or find a gf until i moved to new zealand. i feel like total crap right now. ugh sry for the rant.

im leaving for Ecuador tomorrow to visit family for about a month. (yea, im half hispanic.) just wanted to let you guys know that i won't be on for a month so ill c ya guys when i get back! have a good july!