Well, I am exhausted and have no time to myself but I am seeing a light at the end of the tunnel. As for an update, medical tests came back with positive results even tho I will probably need surgery in the future. I can deal with that!

After months and months of looking for a full time job to take the place of 2 of my 3 jobs, today I was offered a full time position. I am thrilled! The mom in me is sad because I will no longer be picking the boys up from school but on the up side, I won't have to work any more nights and weekends! I start on April 7th.

Taylor has been in drivers education classes the last 3 weeks. I can't believe he will be 16 next month and able to drive this summer. He is growing up so fast!

We will be heading down to Indianapolis for another state championship game -- this time The Bishop Luers Knights basketball team. (Taylor's high school) As some of you might recall, we followed our football team all the way to the state title this year and now the basketball team is trying. Go Knights!

Even tho it is suppose to be spring, I saw snow tonight and got to drive home in freezing rain. Wanting those spring flowers to lighten up my wintery misery.

I will try to be on more now that I have some of my nights and weekends back! Got to catch up on my ER stuff before it comes back -- hopefully bringing my John Carter back!

Happy Easter to everyone!

Why does it seem like I always seem to be waiting for something. I am still waiting to hear if I got a position that I interviewed for over a week ago, waiting to be able to quit my part time night job so that I can see my family again, waiting to have some medical tests done and then waiting for results. My life is a waiting game right now.

I've got the winter blues and spring is not close enough in my sights to see that "light at the end of the tunnel." I'm exhausted and fragile and moody. And it's not just me. The boys can't even say one nice thing to one another. Oh wait...that's not just now..that's how it's always been!

And I gave up pop for Lent so I don't even have my crutch to lean on. And the valentines day chocolate is gone.

What's next? Only God knows..and I hope He lets me in on his plans a tiny bit to keep my sanity! Or what's left of it!

I have to say, maybe by putting this in writing, I will work harder at trying to change some things in my life. Accountability is the thing, right?

First, I need to learn to say no. I never am saying no to anyone but myself! And I have had enough! I am declaring war on my schedule.

I want more time for prayer and devotionals. I NEED more time for prayer and devotionals. I am a very blessed person and I don't give credit enough to the man who makes it all possible.

I want more family time. It seems like Taylor is busy with his high school stuff and he is growing up so fast, he will be gone to college soon. I want game night back. I want a fast game of War. I want to play Yahtzee. I want to play Spoons and Uno. I want to do look and finds with both of my boys, not just my eight year old. I want to color. Do you know how long it has been since I stopped and colored a picture?

Of course the health things, weight down, high blood pressure down and excerise and healthy eating up. I will try. Again.

And last but not least, I want to learn more patience with everyone in my life - whether family, friends or people I only meet once. I want them to take something from our encounter and I want it to always be positive.

Thank you to all of the wonderfulpeople that I have made on this site for standing by me, praying for me and having faith and confidence in my. It means the world to me, my friends.

I have bored you enough..now get on with your day! Bless you all! {{{hugs}}}