COMMENT ME.

i miss eeveryone.

well me and my brother sold my old computer to pay a bill...... sorry i havent been on. finally my brother confessed to my mom that we were poor as sh*t so they moved us back to Nj. i live with my brother in a little house my parents bought us in the town i used to live in. i legally dont have to see my family, so i dont. i aviod my sisters in the hall but i talk to my little brother when i see him. its just like living in canda i dont see my family its just me and my brother but everyone talks english ! and i back with my bestfriends. and im also back with my old boyfriend ! the only bad thing is one time me and my sister went to the bathroom at the same time and she was washing her hands and i walked in and she started to cry. she told me how much they miss us and just to talk to them she said she didnt care that i was "emo" i told her i wasnt and to get over herself and leave me alone. but eventually i caved in so i do talk to my sisters sotmimes. christmas was amazing ! me and spencer bought eachother presants and opened them together. we bought eachother the same jeans ! (he wears girls jeans) it was funny. then we drank monster and ate soup that we made hahaha. new years we had a party all spencers friends and mine we were so drunk. well it looks like life is getting better we have $ from our parents and spencer got a job i have a boyfriend and so does spencer he came out =/ i was upset but what can i do ? anyway i gotta go comment me !

1. i admit my life has been a living hell since the age of 3.

2. i admit me and my bother are poor

3. i admit i dont eat on pourpose

4. i admit i like cutting seeing the blood poor down my arm makes me rember i controll my pain.

5. i admit i dont know my real father

6. i admit i hate my family in america

7. i admit i smoke

8. i admit i feel like a 14 yearold acholic

9. i admit i HATE the attention i get

10. i admit my smiles and laughs are fake

11. i admit im jelous of anyone who looks happy, i wish that was me.

12. i admit i cry myself to sleep

13. i admit im not 100% okay with my brother being bi even though its not my choice

14. i admit i lay in bed and think about having the perfect life because it feel great to feel like i have one even if its just for 2 minutes.

15. i admit im not really stupid im just lazy.

16. i admit i have thought about sudicide more then once.

17.i admit i've been through more things then most grown ups.

18. i admit my family thinks me and my sisters are a disgrace.

19.admit i'm terrified of something happening to my brother.

20.i admit im adicted to newports.

21.i admit my moms an alcoholic

22. i admit i want to stop hurting.

23. i admit i lost my vergnity in 6th grade

24.i admit im scared of my self

25.i admit i'm the least loved child.

26.i admit i have no self control

27. I admit that i have anger issues.

i admit even after all these confessions i just made, i still have some things to admit