I have been noticing as the weekends go on I seem to be drinking more and more each weekend, I mean it's not like I am drinking midweek or anything but I probably would if I could afford to drink everyday, but I mean the thing is I only drink at the weekends and it's not just a social drink with friends, it's totally getting hammered out of my head, I mean on a Friday all I think about is getting home from work, getting ready to go out and get hammered, is this the way to be??

I mean I drink more because we always seem to start off round my mates house before we go out drinking in the town, I mean we go to Sainsburys to get vodka and blue bolt (cheap version of red bull) I mean I get a bottle of vodka to myself so when we are round my mates, we have pints of vodka and blue bolt, I mean yesterday me and 2 of my mates went for a litre and a half bottle of vodka between us, we cained that, I mean I was having beers, pints of vodka blue bolt and a bit of wine as well, last night was the worst I had ever been in my life because within 2 minutes of walking into the pub, going to the toilet coming back out I got thrown out by the bouncer, he wanted 2 see my id so I showed him and he wrote my name down and said I was banned for 6 months I didn't even do nuffin wrong neither

So I got chucked out and thought I will go to the pub where my brothers mate is djing, the bouncers wouldn't let me in there because I was 2 out of it, so they said go and get something to eat and come back in an hour, so I went down the kebab shop got a kebab saw a bloke I knew who was with loads of girls who seemed 2 know who I was but I had no clue who they was, I didn't even eat the kebab just threw it in the road after spilling most of it all over the floor anyway because I couldn't stand up straight.. also my mate said 2 me today that he spoke 2 me in the pub and I tried 2 speak 2 him but I couldn't string a sentance together

Anyway I walked these girls who I didn't even no to the train station and said my goodbyes then ran to the pub where they said if I was sobered up I could come in, I wasn't sobered up what so ever but they let me in because of my bro's mate djing there, they said I could go in but cudn't drink becoz thats how bad I was

I mean everyone has a weekend drink but I seem to be getting in worse states than normal now and it's surely not gd for me getting in these states, but the thing is I love getting totally hammered but when I wake up in the morning I think what was the point of that, I now feel like crap all day and have done all today, I know its my fault but do u think I am getting a bit to obessed with drinking at weekends??