I'm very depressed this holiday season because this will be my first one without any of my immediate family there with me. Even last Christmas when my mom was sick, at least she was home with me and we were together. I guess it's all about how much denial you can put yourself in and how much you can get by on. Of coarse, there is a happy part to this story. I'm going to be with my Uncle and my two cousins but they don't celebrate Christmas, as I shouldn't be either because my mom and my dad are Jewish, but then again so are my cousins, but they never celebrate Hanukkah any way. It's just really sad that it's Christmas Eve tomorrow with my best friend and her family because every one is working. Am I the only one that thinks that that is ridiculous?!?!?!?!? Oh well. It's times like this that I remember my favorite Christmas presant of all time: a song from my dad. It was the Christmas before he died and he took this song from an album by Phil Collins and sang it again and burned it on a CD, and agave it to me. I love it. It's on my iPod and I listen to it alot. But when the time came that I thought I was ready to sing it, I just broke down in tears. It was really hard because that was the last gift he ever gave me before he was killed. And I'm not even going to be in my own house. i'll be three hours away, three long hours away. The first thing someone asked me was what about the presants. and i looked at them with such disbelieve like you have no idea what your talking about.... Any way, if you made it through this long journey, i congradulate you. and for everyone of my friends

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!!!!!!! or if your like me HAPPY REMAINING DAYS OF HANUKKAH!!!!!!!!

-sam