I was bored, so wrote a poem/song lyrics. constructive criticisms are appreciated.

What if all these emotions, ain't emotional enough,
Sensitive's never really worked for me, and I can't pull off tough,
There's precious little wrong, but there's precious little right,
Oh I wish these thoughts would leave me be, when I'm alone at night.

I know I ain't about to find the answers to my petty woes,
at the bottom of a glass of vodka in some cheap bar, so I'll go,
and I know, there's nothing waiting for me in what passes for home,
but the steady beat of a dismal downpour against dreary grey stone,

And I wanna believe, that it'll all be okay,
I wanna put my faith in fate and throw all caution away,
But I guess at the root of it all, I'm just not that brave
I'm just not that willing to let people see who I really am.

I wish that when I told you I loved you, that I meant what I said,
instead, of a calculated offering, to manipulate your head,
I wish that when I held you in my arms and watched you close your eyes,
I could just enjoy that moment, but I just worry about tomorrow's lies.

So I'll wander these darkened hollows and haunts that are probably bad for my health
It's all a stall anyway, and I'm most comfortable by myself,
Yeh, it's lonely, but that's my life, or at least my point of view,
Maybe one day, I'll let someone inside, but it's never gonna be you.

I give you a few kind and unfelt words, they make you smile for a while,
I truly do wish I meant them, but meaning's not my $tyle,
I feel bad for deceiving you, but I guess I don't have the guts to hurt you,
and it shuts you up for a bit.