My last few blogs have been very depressing & confusing- I'm so sorry! And I was just about to apologise for them being self absorbing, but I think all my blogs are so, oops!  So thanks for bearing with me.

On a quick semi-downbeat / cheery note- am thrilled that Hammond (Richard Hammond from my beloved Top Gear) is on the mend & a quick nod to all the assumed numbskull petrol heads for donating in excess of £150,000 to Yorkshire Ambulance.

In a bizarre twist, I'm surprised to say I'm not watching much TV! If only I was across the pond, I'd have the hard time of scheduling my life around all the new seasons, sigh...I can wait til January / September 07- wait, DID I JUST SAY THAT OUT LOUD? Withdrawal symptons!! Need new TV shows asap....getting weaker...need new episodes before a...study...ethic...kicks...in....

TO BE CONTINUED.....

After too long stressing about it, I've finally got this essay out of what little hair I have left.

AS usual, I didn't sleep and pulled a stupidly long caffeine fuelled stint of studying- I really wish I didn't do this to myself.

If anyone can tell me how to study progressively and without the hallucinations, sleep deprivation etc etc etc, I would love you forever!

What was worse still was taking a break and checking the net for news, at about 8 or 9am (GMT) I was faced with the news about Steve Irwin. I really thought it was a sick joke or that I was seeing things, I wish I was.

He'll be sadly missed, but I have every faith that Terri, Bindi and eventually Bob will keep Steve's message and passion for nature very much alive.

-I'll quickly add that the reporting of this has been shocking. Every report has been, music, 'X is dead' music; report- had it coming, irony of shark, lovely guy.... What, excuse the pun, a crock! It's only words to reporters, but Steve Irwin was loved by the old and young, and everyone inbetween- a lot of kids got to hear that 'structured & balanced' report before going back to school today...

This has turned into a rant. Sorry.

R.I.P. Steve.

I've checked e.online, people mag, glamour, google- entertainment news, atptennis.com and have perused a little known site by the name of tv.com- and what have I found?

NOTHING!

This would be because I'm desperately bored and have checked back to the same sites every 5 minutes in the hope of a long term distraction. Despite being stupidly close deadline- 12hrs to write 2000 more words, I can't help but procrastinate- there's nothing left to do but tear my hair out and focus.

Farewell Mr Agassi, always a pleasure never a chore to watch you play- don't be a stranger now... x