Well this time next week I will turn 28. It really should be a happy time for me but to be honest all I keep thinking about is where I am going in life.

As most of you know my work had a change of ownership. I worked my arse off to get where I was in the place, after nine years I was a dispense tech, in charge of 6 other people and basically knew everytihng about anything. When this new chick took over 6 months ago she got rid of all the extra staff, and the ones she kept have quit anyway. So basically it is only me there now. She treats me like a junior. I dont dispense scripts anymore and I dont do dosette medication boxes she took all that away from me. I am now a checkout chick basically, all my training and hard work has come to nothing. My old boss keeps ringing me up and telling me how wonderful his life is and I swear to God I want o kill him sometimes. The other thing is too since he left buisness has really dropped off big time. Today is pension day and I can guarantee when I get there we will be dead today. Part of that is due to the new owner, she has no people sklills whatsoever and nobody is warming to her. But she refuses to believe it is her fault and that it is everybody elses fault. She even had a go at me last week becasue I went on my break and she had to serve and do scripts and 2 people walked out becasue it was busy. Well that not my problem, hire more staff?? Thats a good freaking idea. It is really hard to go and find anew job at the moment because no one is hiring in pharmacy becasue there will be huge changes in august. I really do hate it though, I shouldnt be made to feel like iv3e only been there 3 months instead of 9 years.

The other thing I keep thinking about too is kids. My sister had a baby about 5 months ago and he is gorgeous. She got married 2 years ago, and then decided they wanted a baby so they were trying pretty much from day one. I never really used to think I would want children but I can feel my biological clock ticking! Plus everyone around me has either just had a child or is pregnant. My boyfriends brother's girlfreidn just found out she is expecting so they are all excited. Im so happy for them but there is that little part of my mind that keeps saying it should be me. My boyfriend doesnt want kids just yet. We have been together for nearly 6 years and we arent even engaged yet so kids wont be for a long time yet I think!!!

I just feel like everyone around me is going forward and something good is happening in their lives and Im just standing still like Im going in slow motion and with my birthday next week it is really starting to bring me down.

Hopefully I can start celebrating soon.