Wow it certainly has been a while. Thank my poor gaming skills for my reappearance. I got stuck and was looking up a game guide when I decided to stop in and see how everything's going around GS. It seems to be a pretty sad state of affairs. Even more departures and changes from what I can see.

More and more people are just cutting loose, and they just can't be replaced. I really think the golden age is over.

But just some quick updates on my life.

Started Year 11 at school this year, and man is it hard work. I've taken up 5 TEE subjects (HSC for anyone in the eastern states, and if you're not from australia, well, I don't know) Physics, Chemistry, Maths 3A, Maths Specialist and the compulsory English. I'm also doing a Contemporary Music course which is great

Gaming is virtually non-existant in my life now, I just don't have the time or the interest any more. Sigh.

Been writing A LOT, songs and poetry and whatnot, and getting some tracks recorded with my sitser.

Other than that, this year has been a tumultuous one for me. For a few years now, I have been struggling with depression, and things were going pretty badly for me. All of it came to a head in February this year when I was taking a night time walk with some friends. I tried to drown myself at the beach. Thankfully they got me to come back out of the water. Since then I've found help and am taking a course of medication. Had some couselling sessions but found it didn't really help much and gave up. Everything is so much better now though, I'm much much happier, and I'm okay with who I am. Life is beginning to make a lot more sense.

Now while I might not be staying here at Gamespot long, I would very much like to catch up with any old friends, so if you're around and want to chat, PM me. Or email me at hungryjacks_burgers@hotmail.com If any of you have msn you can also add me at this address

Or add me on myspace www.myspace.com/hungryjacks92

or Twitter http://twitter.com/jackhayesb

Well, that's all for now I guess...

Also, I realise I never did a farewell blog, so I guess this is it. To all of you still out there, goodnight and goodbye.

I've had something of a relevation these last couple of days, I won't go so far as to say it was life-changing, but it has definitely shifted my perspective on things. It's very hard to describe, through a series of both tragic and happy events that happened to me and people close to me, and a strange sequence of dreams and random thoughts, my very being has been altered.

The closest thing I can think of to compare it to is Alice in Wonderland, a strange reference I know, but bear with me... she also experienced a strange dream sequence which changed her view on life, and there is a quote that comes to mind that I think sums up how I feel- "Dear, dear! How queer everything is today! I wonder if I've been changed in the night? Let me think: was I the same when I got yp this morning? I almost think I can remember feeling a little different. But if I'm not the same, the next question is, 'Who am I' Ah, that's the puzzle", so I have to decided to call my condition Wonderland syndrome. This may seem strange to you, but it amuses me, so leave me be...

Now, don't worry, I'm not a completely different person... I'm still the same major you know and love/hate/(insert comment here). I've just had a slight personality change, I'll still be around. Well, I don't expect anyone to really understand that, but I felt I had to put my thoughts into words. And whether it was a personality switch, an epiphany, or a possible psychological episode, I feel like I'm a better person for it.

Well that was a very pointless ramble, and badly written too. After this I will go back to blogging as per normal. I was going to raise another rather thought-provoking topic in this blog, but it would be too long, and I don't want to start any arguments, as it most probably would... so maybe next time.

That's all folks.

Well, I decided it was about time to post something up here, since the old one's been there for almost a month. I know that blogging just for the sake of blogging isn't much of a resaon, so I'll provide you with updates on what's going on in my life.

School has been a killer, what with this being our last term, and an incredibly short one at that (6 weeks), as well us having outdoor ed camp coming up. So we have have been hit hard with assessments and I'm frantically studying for exams. Luckily I have been able to keep up with it though, so I'll I still have time for a social life, and some time to spare for gaming and GS.

I've been working a bit, but not enough to earn huge amounts of money, especially considering I spent a few hundred dollars over the school holidays. But I'm getting the hang of it more now, and getting to know the people better, so it's not as bad as it could be.

I have a shiny new laptop to replace my old one that got "destroyed" when our house flooded. It was already broken anyway, but we claimed it on insurance and I got something a lot better. So I now have my PC and my laptop, which is far superior, and will let me actually play games.

Although with gaming, there's not much going on... Been playing a lot of Zork, I love the old DOS games. And I will be getting Counter Strike: Source and Garry's Mod, because 1.6 is beginning to annoy me. I've also started playing SAMP (San Andreas Multiplayer), which is incredibly fun because of the community and modding. I don't really have enough cash to be buying new games, although I plan to get Force Unleashed for Wii, and hopefully I can convince my parents to get me a 360 or PS3 for Christmas, not sure what I want yet, still considering which has games that appeal to me more.

Apart from that, not much happening, I'm enjoying summer and being able to get out more with my friends, although today was ridiculously hot, spent most of my time indoors with air-conditioning or swimming.

I haven't had much opportunity for writing, and frankly I couldn't be bothered, although I have been researching for what my be my first editorial type blog. I know I said I would post more poetry, and that will happen soon, considering I have to write poems for school, so I will use that as an excuse to motivate me. I have been writing some music, but don't expect to see it here...

And one final thing before I wind down this blog, I am considering forming a union, because while I enjoy the one's I am in, they can get a bit slow sometimes, so I'm tossing around ideas, I have two main ideas that are drawing my interest. First of all, I would like to create a casual discussion/off topic/creatively themed union, already got some ideas for that one. But the other one which I only thought of today is more likely to happen. I consider myself something of a film buff, but what inspired me was my love of badly made films, real C-grade shockers, or anything with "technical inconsistencies". The only issue I have with that is I don't think there are that many people who share my passion, and it would be hard to get enough support to get it off the ground. So, what do you think folks? Either of them worthy of creation?

Well, apart from that I have nothing to say, although it turned out quite a bit longer than I expected. Look forward to moer from me in the coming weeks.