Ok, so heres an update on what hapend with that one girl. I talked to her and she told me that she wasnt ready for a bf. Taht her parents didnt want her iwth one and that she couldnt be with me and be happy..and not be "ok" wit her parents. She said taht she was sorry and she wants to be "BEST FRIENDS" with me...wow, i never knew so lil words can hurt so much. I know im probably actin like a hug wimp or something, but i loved her with all my heart...and it kinda suks cuz now that shes gone i really dont see da point in anything anymore. Nothing makes me happy, all i see is misery and i see all my friends happy and enjoying their lives while im stuck here. This sucks, i dont know what to do. ive officialy lost my mind and sanity. oh well....i gues its the time for me to START drinking.....maybe that will help me.