Lately... idk. Lately, it has been so crazed and dramatic, I'm usually all for the drama ( It's more fun!) but not this kind. There are these two girls, who I will just call E & H for now, but they have become my soul-mates, my bffs, my ride or die buds, my we do everything with each-other buds, that was until it happened... E has recently been going through her share of drama: losing her ex whose son she has adopted and getting kicked out of her house, so in her time of distress she did something so vile... so horrible, she hooked up with an Ogre (he's not an actual ogre, but he comes close lol) ! Ever since the hook-up she hasn't been the same she has completely become a stranger to me, she has been deserting me and H and spending all of her time hanging with Shrek! I have just recently become an associate of E & H's, but H and E go way back... E knows almost everything about H shes been there for H through all of the dramz but now she has completely turned her back on H, WTF? And to make matters worse we all work together: E, H,me, and unfortunately Shrek. I don't know what to do any more, it's just so awkward and complicated at work E acts like she doesn't see me and H, she doesn't even have the decency to answer a frikkin text or call... so i dunno, i just don't know what to do any more. It would all be so simple if E just came out and admitted that she liked the guy, but she doesn't and i don't think that she ever will, she told me and H that she F-ing hates the guy, it was disgusting and definitely a one time thing, yet she still avoids me and H for him? I can be strong w/o E, I don't need her to be in my life if she doesn't want to, but H... H needs E. E was one of the few people that was there for H, E knows everything about H. Yesterday was the worst H had a meltdown b/c w/o E she has no one... E was her everything! So E I don't have anything to say to you, if you see me in the future you can still shoot me a dirty look or act like I don't mean anything to you- that's cool, whatevs. But, what about H? What about the promise that you made to her that you were gonna be there forever? E I hope your reading this right now, if you want a war that's what you've got, I'm effing better at this game than you anyways so bring it on! Just remember the promise that you made to H...

How Lucky we Are by Meiko

One day we'll get outta this **** apartment
One day is all it takes for things to turn around now
All I know is I got you and you got me, babe

And when that morning comes
I'll make coffee and you'll read the paper
We'll talk about our plans
And I'll keep saying how lucky we are

One day we'll get in the car and drive anywhere we wanna go
And then we'll stay in a five star, mini-bar, luxury hotel room
Cuz all I know is I got you and you got me, babe

And when that morning comes
I'll make coffee and you'll read the paper
We'll talk about our plans
And I'll keep saying how lucky we are

How lucky we are, oh oh oh
How lucky we are, oh oh oh
How lucky we are, oh oh oh
How lucky we are, are, are...

One day we'll turn on the tv and we won't see nothing 'bout war
And when that morning comes
I'll make coffee and you'll read the paper
We'll talk about our plans
And I'll keep saying how lucky we are

How lucky, how lucky we are
Oh how lucky, how lucky, how lucky we are
Oh how lucky, how lucky, how lucky we are
Oh how lucky, how lucky, how lucky we are

I have a problem letting people in, letting people know all about me. I think that I am a little bit damaged (make that a lot damaged), and it's very hard for me to trust people. I have never even told my best friend since Kindergarten all about me, but lately I've been trying to become more personable and tell people more about myself. I've made a resolution to post a new blog each week with some detail of my life, I'm just so afraid of bieng hurt. Well, here's the first in a series of self-expository blogs!