I even left school early to get this cd. And I am not dissappointed. I wouldn't go so far as to say that it is better than Disturbed's original cd, "The Sickness," but it is definately better than their second cd "Believe."
But hey, I like it!
Lord British
I feel completly apathetic towards LaRae now. I finally got a chance to breakup with her last night. Actually I do feel a little bit of pity for her. I mean, being a pathological liar is a bad thing to be. Being completely unable to stop lieing, I think she needs to see a therapist about that or something.
Heh, the breakup was boring. She stood like right infront of me for 10-15 min at US-75 but I never looked at her (she loves attention so I didn't pay any attention to her). I didnt even look into her eyes when I was breaking up with her, I glanced at her face but that was an accident. I was leaving US-75 and I told her I needed to talk to her. Then I was thinking about whether or not I should just tell her or if I should draw it out.
Her: "Just say it."
Me: "I'm Breaking up with you."
Her: "Okay."
That was it. And apparently she was going to break up with me (Matt said she wrote a note and everything), so I'm glad that I was able to do it before she could. I'm also very glad that Kelly did everything she could to make me open my eyes and see LaRae for what she really is before I could get hurt. Thats why I wouldn't look at her. I can see through all the lies and bullsh*t. She has become Ugly to my eyes.
I'm also glad that she didn't get mad when I broke up with her, because now that I know she never really loved me and that she didn't care about me and that our time together ment nothing to her (just like it means nothing to me) I have no second thoughts about it. I am free from her grasp once and for all.
Oh and, I'm officially a xanga newbe by Josh's standards. I have reached 40 subscribers. Ben Page was the 40th. So thank you Ben, you rock!
Lord British (The Man In Black) Was Here!!!!
Dazed & Confused....
More so than before....
Doing detective work is really hard! Sorting out all the facts, getting everything straight, figuring out who is lieing and who is telling the truth. It is all so confusing. I have to turn to people completely uninvolved with the situation to find any kind of useful guidance...Too bad that person won't answer her God Damn cell phone!! What happens over the next couple of days and the decisions I make based on them, will have a huge impact on my life for the next couple of months. The worst part is, either way somebody will get hurt. I have to make my decisions carefully, but my head is spinning. Things are finally starting to come into perspective, but I dont think I like what I'm beginning to see. Just take my time, wait it out, be patient.
This time, I'm going to wait it out...Find the answer. Step into the Shadow. Shrouding every step I take. Soften this old armor. Hopin' I can clear the way. I've been wallowing in my own confused, insecure delusions. I wanna feel the change consume me. From the outside turning in. I wanna feel the chains coming down. I wanna know what I've been hiding...in My Shadow.
Lord British (The Man In Blood) Was Here!!!!
