So it's been a while since I don't have a job, long four months, long four months where I been going insane slowly, but in some way I don't complaint about my current situation, because I suffered a lot in the first few months here working for the theme park who I am not going to say the name freely.

First of all in this park who is located in Tampa, and it's probably one of the most famous attractions around the city and in Central Florida, is one place where racism is at the order of the day even if a 25% or 35% of the workers are Hispanic or Hispanic descendent, they are discriminated by many ignorant individuals who are in position of relative power and think the park belongs to them. I was discriminated also, by many of those higher power, I remember every time in my break I used to cry in the employees restroom, and I was mocked by accent by many of those people, I remember who depressed I wasn't myself, I remember how I lost contact with my essence due the changes.

One of those anecdotes I have, was that I wasn't feeling well from the stomach, I suffer from gastroenteritis and almost anything I eat pays a tool on my stomach and my colon, well, one day I was feeling sick I went because I had to, I had a responsibility, but I wasn't feeling ok so I opened the store and I went to quickly to the restroom after I cleaned and put everything in order, while I was doing my necessity in the toilet, one of my bosses (yes, in the park everyone is boss from everyone and there is no real authority, so you can imagine the bubbleheads giving commands to everyone) went to the restroom and started to insulting me because I didn't have permission to poop, yes, you need to have permission to poop, so you can imagine that I didn't finish because she was next to me and then when I get out of the toilet she destroyed the rest of my spirit that day and I cried, I cried a lot, it was the first time a ignorant 53 years old woman put tears in my face, and the worst was that I spend the rest of the day soiled, they treat most of the employees as robots and they never give any compliments, but I know that's the mechanics of a big enterprise as that park is.

They day my time in the park ended, I was extremely happy, because I knew I didn't had to go back the next morning to that place, when my time ended I slept like a baby that night, for the first time in four months I didn't had nightmares or my sleep deprived due the stress because is not easy for latinos here. I know it wasn't going to be easy, but I learned that I am not going to be kicked again by some ignorant undereducated who think she or he is the best just because of the color of his her skin or his nationality, I know I am better of those peoples and I know I will have a better life, but right now four months later I don't know what is happening, I don't feel like advancing in my life, I am not gaining money, I feel stuck in a four month loop, yes I know the economical situation is not the best but not even in a Publix I can get a job? Is hard. But you know, even from all what I say, I will go back later to the park to reapply for a second time, because in these times of need, I can be egotistical because I need to survive, and even if that place I hated, I need money as everyone else, no matter what, except that this time I am not alone, I have the company of my dad with me and I have adapted more to my new home, I feel strong enough to take any experience, and I feel strong because slowly I have my family with me.

Hello to all, I decided to log on only three times a week now that I have a steady schedule plus conection I log on tommorrow with some juicy stores.

Love,

Gus

Everyone lately with the Olympiads we have seen some of the best and worse of sport, but one of those interesting moments were to see Michael Phelps breaking records, but what is appealing of Michael Phelps? Well, so many answers came to my head, he is one of the top sportsmen, many people love him and he has money, but still what is Michael appeal?, well, probably the most easy answer I could find was that Michael has the typical boy next door and many people can feel relate to him because he will evoke the image of everyone next door neighbor.

Also I was thinking beside Michael looks, his many achievements and hard looks are a living proof that the American Dream can be achievement if you believe it, probably Michael is the living proof that if you believe it you can achieve it and that iconography appeal to many people and make Michael's public image commercially to a general audience, but even is public image is impeccable and people fantasies with his image, most of the time they forget he is not a god but a regular and average kid from Maryland, who suffers ADHD, who was arrested by DUI and he was later regretting because he let down his family, he is just a man who carries not only his triumphs and defeats but the weight of been an Olympian, and he is only 23 years, at his 23 years of living he carries more pressure than any other twenty something, but still he embodies what many people want to achieve.

At the end, he is just a 23 years old guy who has achieve more than many people in a lifetime, but still he is just a kid who likes to have fun and even if the Baltimore Sun describes him as "A Solitary Man", he is just a guy who wants his privacy to be respected and enjoy his anonymity as a regular person.