I have not been in the greatest mood for the past few days. I've just been going through a lot of hard times. I just ended a friendship with someone because she was going around and calling me a bum because I don't have a job, and she thinks she's so cool because she works at Walmart. Well, no offense to anyone who does work at Walmart, but it's not the best job. From what I've heard, the managers can be mean sometimes, and the hours there suck. I've been looking for a job, but no one seems to want to hire me. At least I'm trying...it'd be different if I was just sitting at home all the time and not looking for a job.

I've also been having problems with another friend. We found out that we like the same guy, and my friend told my sister that she's afraid I'm gonna try to steal the guy from her. Well, first of all, he's not dating either of us, so it's not possible for me to steal him away from her. Secondly, I do like him...a lot, but each time a friend and I like the same guy, it turns into a big competition. And I never win. So I just feel like why bother trying if I know I'll never win?

Finally, yesterday was the anniversary of my dad's death. It's been 12 years since the accident. I just didn't feel like doing anything. I couldn't do anything because no matter what I did, I just couldn't bring myself to be happy. It's just hard for me to believe that it's been 12 years already. It's hard to go through that. I just hate June 28. It's the worst day of the year for me. It just goes by so slow and I always want it to go by fast, so a new day can start. It's the one day out of the year that I dread the most.