I have not been in the greatest mood for the past few days. I've just been going through a lot of hard times. I just ended a friendship with someone because she was going around and calling me a bum because I don't have a job, and she thinks she's so cool because she works at Walmart. Well, no offense to anyone who does work at Walmart, but it's not the best job. From what I've heard, the managers can be mean sometimes, and the hours there suck. I've been looking for a job, but no one seems to want to hire me. At least I'm trying...it'd be different if I was just sitting at home all the time and not looking for a job.

I've also been having problems with another friend. We found out that we like the same guy, and my friend told my sister that she's afraid I'm gonna try to steal the guy from her. Well, first of all, he's not dating either of us, so it's not possible for me to steal him away from her. Secondly, I do like him...a lot, but each time a friend and I like the same guy, it turns into a big competition. And I never win. So I just feel like why bother trying if I know I'll never win?

Finally, yesterday was the anniversary of my dad's death. It's been 12 years since the accident. I just didn't feel like doing anything. I couldn't do anything because no matter what I did, I just couldn't bring myself to be happy. It's just hard for me to believe that it's been 12 years already. It's hard to go through that. I just hate June 28. It's the worst day of the year for me. It just goes by so slow and I always want it to go by fast, so a new day can start. It's the one day out of the year that I dread the most.

I'm finally done with high school. It's an amazing feeling. I just can't believe it.

Graduation went really well. I had been getting so stressed a few hours before and was beginning to feel like I didn't want to go to it. But I'm glad I went. We had two valedictorians this year, and one of them just so happens to be a good friend of mine. Right at the end, when one of the valedictorian's said, "We have finally graduated", he threw his cap up and the rest of the c.l.a.s.s. did as well, and then we all silly-stringed each other. It was a blast.

One thing that had been bothering me during almost the entire ceremony was the fact that my father wasn't there. I had a picture of him in my pocket and as the ceremony was going on, I had pulled it out and held onto it until it was time for me to go on stage to receive my diploma. My grandma had even told me that she was extremely upset because he wasn't there. I found out later on that my aunt had begun crying at the graduation because of that reason. But after the ceremony was over, I went to celebrate at my dad's favorite place, which is the bar that my grandparents own. My sister and a friend of mine went there and my grandma said that we could order any food that we wanted at no charge. She said we could celebrate. It was awesome.

Then I met up with another friend of mine and we did a little shopping. I walked into Wal-mart with my cap on. Hey, I had just graduated from high school and I didn't want to take my cap off. I was celebrating lol. I had bought two energy drinks that night and then didn't go to bed till like 4 or 5 in the morning cuz I was bouncing off the walls haha.

But high school is over. Now college is about to arrive...