It comes and goes most of the time. Mostly when I am awake or when I go to bed of when I wake up.. ALONE... that is how I feel ALL the time..
Yes, my daughter is staying with me for the time being, until she has her second baby, but its not that kind of alone feeling.
Its the I wish I had a man in my life feeling. I hate being alone. I hate having to do everything by my self and have no one to call if something bad happens. That scares me, the only family I have around me is my daughter and Im the one she would call if she needed someone,, I have NO ONE!!
Im not really sure what to do. I know going out to meet someone sounds good on paper, but I work week ends, Im NOT going into a bar to meet someone or church, god is NOT my pimp. and I work funny hours during the day to volenteer somewhere.. And most times I have been working six days a week.
I really do not like nor can I afford a datting service. I have tryed those and get old men that just want to try and sleep with me.
GOD!!! what am I going to do..? My older brother got married the other month, his first. he 42, I know there has to be someone out there for me. just finding and meeting them is my question..