I sometimes feel like a broken record. Complaining about my daughter.

But what ya going to do..!?

I would like to this is the straw that has broken the camels back. (me being the camel I guess). But she has never really done ONE things that has me not wanting to talk to her. It is more like a number of things that has brought me to this point.

The yelling and screaming (of course I do a lot of yelling and screaming too). The demanding that I help her. Take the baby, Take her shoping, (with her own money but I HAVE to drive).

I bought her car. Some say I was out of my mind to do even that with the way she treats me, but it was only a 100$ so I figured it was not that bad.. Well of course, to her it was not a good enough car "I don't want that piece of crap". Not greatfull that I was able to buy her one, any one but not the right one for her..

Wouldn't let her drive it until she paid to have it insured and taged and plated. "what! I have to do that to.. What do think I am.? The cars in your name mom, you pay for it.". In my name to keep the insurance cheaper of course, but not greatfull about that..

Car would not start of stay started so I put it in the shop and because I have no money I have to leave it there until I can pay to get it out. Car guy is ok with my leaving it in the parking lot until I can come up with the money, Very nice man.. "BUT mom, I need MY car, My boyfriend needs a ride to work and a way back and for the work and what do you expect him to do now.? You know you have the money and you are just not giving it to the car guy.. you are such a B*T*H"

So you better believe that I am selling the car the first person that wants it and she and 'the boyfriend can WALK"!

She has moved out of course and is living in the hotel where she works. Gets a really good deal from the owner, 100$ a week and covers everything, lights, water cable, phone, and you know she is doing her laundry cause she works in housekeeping. I like it there cause it is safe and clean and the owner called me to make sure I was ok with her moving in there.. My daughter told the owner "but im 18, I can move out and move in where I want". the owner:: "I dont care how old you think you are.. I am still calling your mother". Thank goodness someone is on my side..

Well after having had enough of her treating me like dirty under her feet I have decided to 'walk away'. I told her 'you keep saying you want me out of your life.. Well, I'm giving it to you..". "go be an adult' ..

Its killing me not seeing the baby but it this is what has to be to 1: keep my sanity and 2: keep me from beating her head against the first thing I can find... Then so be it.

I pray every moment that she will see that I do help her (especially when she has to walk somewhere cause I am not there to drive her, like the bank or the store). and will call and somehow say she is sorry or what ever is closed to that that she can bring herself to say..

I also pray that she will see that I am NOT that enemy that she makes me out to be.

Maybe not having me around will show her that life was a little better with me around ..