Standing out...

So you won't forget my name

Gone... but also forgotten? I guess time is all it takes to be forgotten in a big way! I made a huge move in my life 11 weeks ago, and moved cities to start a new job. Unfortunately, where I am now living I don't have any kind of internet access, which basically cut all my tv.com time from my world... which is something I never really came to terms with.

Life is fantastic, hugely challenging. I am now the fittest I have been in a long time, and my new job/path is working out well. I've fit it really well and made some very special new friends. I can't really say anymore about it, so I will just have to leave it at that.

I am back in my home town for Christmas, which is how I am online again. I thought seeing as I had some time I might write a quick Christmas blog, just to see who around this place remembers me!

2008 has been a crazy year. Lots of ups and downs. It has been the biggest learning year of my whole life. I feel like a different person, a much older person. My life has taken me in a lot of directions over the last few years, and I can only trust that it is all part of bigger plan that I am on.

The one real constant in my life has remained my music and Xena. I have had so much growth as a fan this year through the forum and my outside discussions with Ian, who has opened my eyes to so many possibilities. I look forward to another year as a fan.


I want to dedicate this blog to Rob and to Lindsey, two of the most important people in my life. I think about Rob so often and will never forget any of the time we spent together. Linds is one of the strongest and best people I've ever met, and after the year we have had, I know that nothing could bind us closer.

The next 5 months will be challenging, but I think I'm over the worst of it all now. Then next May will see another move, to another new town, and another new adventure. No one could ever say my life is boring!

So... for now, just reminding that I'm taking the long way round...

Merry Christmas to all of you in tv.com land... even though I've been gone for a while, the time I've spent here over the last 18 months means more to be than I can say.


That's all she wrote.

LLa xxx

I wished I was smarter
I wished I was stronger
I wished I loved Jesus
The way my wife does
I wish it had been easier
Instead of any longer
I wished I could have stood where you would have been proud
But that won't happen now
That won't happen now

There's a whole lot of singing that's never gonna be heard
Disappearing everyday without so much as a word somehow
Think I broke the wings off that little song bird
She's never gonna fly to the top of the world right now
Top of the world

I don't have to answer any of these questions
Don't have no God to teach me no lessons
I come home in the evening
Sit in my chair
One night they called me for supper
But I never got up
I stayed right there in my chair

There's a whole lot of singing that's never gonna be heard
Disappearing everyday without so much as a word somehow
Think I broke the wings off that little song bird
She's never gonna fly to the top of the world right now
Top of the world

I wished Id a known you
Wished Id a shown you
All of the things I was on the inside
Id pretend to be sleeping
When you come in, in the morning
To whisper good-bye
Go to work in the rain
I don't know why
Don't know why

cause everyone's singing
We just wanna be heard
Disappearing everyday without so much as a word somehow
Wanna grab a hold of that little song bird
Take her for a ride to the top of the world right now

To the top of the world