You may think your brain is actually malfuctioning, but its true. I ACTUALLY BLOGGED!!!
And shame on me for not blogging in ages. *hits self* Oww my eye!!

I wrote a poem Again

I wish I could be there again,

Back safely in the warm embrace we call home.

I miss that place.

Everything there was safe.

I had stability there,

I had you there.

I thought my departure was justified,

Deliberation told me this was what I wanted.

Perhaps not.

I tell them I'm fine,

But my intuition speaks differently.

I hide away, recoiling into darkness.

They don't understand.

Looking back,

I have no trigger as to why I left.

Reminiscing does trigger those memories;

I remember one day vividly.

The teal sky was not broken by clouds,

The trees where so fresh and full of life.

We went to the beach, where we wrote our names in the sand.

Everything was so easy, so simple.

But I have a trait of making it difficult.

I try to think back as to what it felt like;

To be free again, to be clean again, to be home again.

And as I brood alone in the darkness,

I sink into a merciless void.

Depression breeds depression,

Like a disease it engulfs you.

Impulse takes over my actions,

I must go back, to see you again, to rid myself of this disease.

If I don't, I'm afraid I might self destruct.

A plane ticket is a small price to pay for happiness.

Because in your company I know I can be me,

And that's the way its supposed to be.

There is nothing left for me here;

There never was in the first place.

I leave hastily, and as the cab door shuts, I don't look back.

And as the plane gracefully ascends into the ever-blue sky,

I'm not sorry.

The air hostess greets me with a welcoming smile,

And I manage to return it.

As we touch down unto home soil,

I shiver with anticipation.

Will you remember me?

Surely so, we have shared so many wonderful memories.

Soon after, I'm standing at your door,

And I pause, my hand raised, ready to knock.

I gather myself, and rap on the door three times.

You answer immediately.

At first you seem shocked to see me standing cautiously on your doorstep.

Then you smile, the smile I remember.

"Welcome home."

It doesn't have a name though.... Ah well. Tell me your thoughts on it.

Random stuff that's been going on:

- I got the game I was pining over, I mentioned it on my last blog. (Super smash bros brawl ) And I kick ass, not meaning to brag or anything. Cause I don't dig being smug. Though I did get my ass kicked against a level nine Bowser. *licks wounds* IT HURTS IT REALLY DOES!!
Funnily enough, I seem to like playing the villan characters... Except for being Link *giggles*He's a good guy. He saved princess Zelda a gazillion times. I think she's perfectly capable of saving herself though... she just wants Link to do it for her... *high five for Lani*

-I overheard the most hilarious convo when I was at the beach :

*a kid walks over to his mum, covered in muck/sand*

Mother:*shouts* Look at the state of you!! You're new clothes are all dirty!!
Brother: *wails*
Sister: You should try being dirty mummy.

*catches breath* anyway...
-I got some awesome sheep icons... Just cause I'm obsessed

It just reminded me of the nickname Lil gave me PIRATE SHEEP

yay!! Feel free to steal.

- Speaking of sheep, I went to the lambs market on wednesday I'm also going to the sheep breeders sale tomorrow My uncle wants three pure bred Hampshire ewes. They look like terrorists. I swear. Just look:

THEY WEAR BALACLAVAS!!

*is not obsessed* Oh and don't forget to guess the song.

Anyway, I can't think of anything else to write. Love you my silly sheeps.