I just... for a while now I've been feeling the need to write, to say what I'm feeling and what I think.

But I can't seem to get the courage to do that, I write about show and episodes and take the quotes I love most of an episode but I just can't write about myself, I don't know why.

I even once got upset with a friend when he started talking about me with me, I just don't like but...

Here I am trying to say something without actually saying it... it doesn't make sense to you and it almost doesn't make sense to me!

I guess this started when I found the soundtrack of One Tree Hill, the Friends with benefit's cd, there are songs there that make me think, that make me feel and I like it, I love it...

One of the things I think about is the gift of being able to put in paper what you feel (I've already said this before somewhere).

I'm having a hard time writing this now, believe it or not. I want to tell the world what I feel but not to the world I know, to my friends.

That's why I like to write here, because the only ones that see this are people I don't know, that are all around the world but not here.

I want to be known but I don't want it ether. That definitely doesn't make sense to you but OK.