... In April 2008! Gahh I can't wait. I've never been there and I've been bugging my parents about going forever, and they finally gave in! Actually, it was between going to Las Vegas or going to Lake Tahoe on a ski/snowboard trip (I've been snowboarding my whole life, and I'd love to go there, especially because I've read "Remember Lake Tahoe", which is one of the GSR/CSI fics known to man), but we decided on Las Vegas.

It's going to be sooo fun because we're staying on The Strip at the Flamingo and probably the Riviera, and we're gonna go to the Stratosphere and theNew York New York and ride all the rides! Haha, now only five more months to go until spring break!

Yesterday. It was pretty bad, at least for me. I guess you could say I'm kind of the type to let things bottle up and hope that they'll just fade away, (and usually they do... at least for a little while), because I don't really like talking to anyone about my feelings. Yesterday, however, I was being really b*tchy with my mom and sister because there were several things that had just been building up and I was extremely frustrated with everything, and so finally my mom explodes at me saying stuff like "You are such a b*tch" and "If you don't have anything nice to say, shut the hell up", and I just burst into tears because I hadn't even meant to take anything out on anyone.

I ended up telling her how insecure I am (I'm wayyyyy too insecure for one person), and how I don't feel comfortable talking to anyone, not even her. I did tell her, however, that I think I might be actually depressed, like people who cut themselves and consider suicide. No, I don't cut myself, but sometimes I feel like not living anymore would make things much better. So my mom eventually decided that I need therapy. Yes, therapy. Therapy where you talk to a stranger about your problems and they supposedly help you get better. I don't know if it will actually help, but I've been feeling so horrible about everything lately, and I don't want it to get out of control. And I don't want to think about suicide.

Has anyone on here been to therapy before? If you have, does it help? You can PM me if you don't want to comment publicly about it. Any help would be appreciated.

I'm excited for - and dreading - next week's CSI. What will happen? Could this lead to Jorja leaving the show? Everything looks great now, but could it go horribly wrong?

We don't know. Well, I don't know. I'm spoiler-free. Except promos.

And I had sushi and pancakes for dinner. And I have no school tomorrow. And it's 11:37 pm here and I'm feeling crazyyyyyyyyyy.

GSR!

I felt the need.