This is all because of a Myspace war featuring pictures--you can call me a p**** if you want, after reading this.

This is all an MSN conversation, it's a little long, but it's alright. He's Tony, I'm "lay with me; i could use the company."

ony.HOODS in springfield september 23rd! says:

tony.HOODS in springfield september 23rd! says:

tony.HOODS in springfield september 23rd! says:

tony.HOODS in springfield september 23rd! says:

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You know what, I'm not going to mess with you, I won't even hurt you, I got a future to think about, I talked to one of my good Christian friends and he showed me a different point of view, so I'm going to follow the Lord and not let this effect me

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I do hope you never talk about my deceased brother ever again, because that really effected me in a way you don't even understand

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You can talk your crap, do whatever, but you will regret it

tony.HOODS in springfield september 23rd! says:

tony.HOODS in springfield september 23rd! says:

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Laugh all you want man

tony.HOODS in springfield september 23rd! says:

tony.HOODS in springfield september 23rd! says:

tony.HOODS in springfield september 23rd! says:

tony.HOODS in springfield september 23rd! says:

tony.HOODS in springfield september 23rd! says:

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dude, i am calm

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if i wasn't calm

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i wouldn't be talking to you

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all i'm asking is you never ever talk about my deceased brother

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that's what made me so mad, i was calm, why do you think i was talking to amber and joy last night, because they calmed me down

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but you talked about my deceased brother dude!!!!

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you don't understand how far you crossed the line on that one

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but i'm okay, i'm calm, i'm not going to flip

tony.HOODS in springfield september 23rd! says:

tony.HOODS in springfield september 23rd! says:

tony.HOODS in springfield september 23rd! says:

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yes, i was mad

tony.HOODS in springfield september 23rd! says:

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no

tony.HOODS in springfield september 23rd! says:

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maybe i did, but when people talk about a family member of mine who's passed and think it's just another joke, no, that's wrong, and you won't even apologize for it, and you're not understanding at all

tony.HOODS in springfield september 23rd! says:

tony.HOODS in springfield september 23rd! says:

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okay, i know that, yet you kept nagging it on and weren't listening to me

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you were after i told you!

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you kept going on and on about it

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and wouldn't listen to me

tony.HOODS in springfield september 23rd! says:

tony.HOODS in springfield september 23rd! says:

tony.HOODS in springfield september 23rd! says:

tony.HOODS in springfield september 23rd! says:

tony.HOODS in springfield september 23rd! says:

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see

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now you're nagging it on even more

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dude

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why, what is your problem, really

tony.HOODS in springfield september 23rd! says:

tony.HOODS in springfield september 23rd! says:

tony.HOODS in springfield september 23rd! says:

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lol

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i am chill

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i just don't understand why you keep going on about it, when i told you, i'm calm and everything and that i wasn't going to do anything

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and you still think it's funny to mess with me

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Just stop, that's all I'm asking

tony.HOODS in springfield september 23rd! says:

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Why in the hell would I lie about a dead family member

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Josh doesn't know about my passed away brother dude

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Only 3 people know about him

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I don't tell anyone really, it's something I don't like to talk about

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but when I get insulted about a brother, I do snap, because it's just insulting to dis family in the first place

tony.HOODS in springfield september 23rd! says:

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I know it wasn't intentional, I don't care about pity, all I'm saying is that you're still being immature when I'm trying to talk it out with you, all I'm saying is that when I did tell you about my dead brother, you "thought" i was lying and kept nagging on about it and talking crap, why can't you just admit that you're wrong in some points to, yes, i took it too far, and so did you, man up man

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And the reason I told everyone about it was because I have true friends, and they calmed me down, because if they didn't I would of regretted something last night, that's the reason I drove over to Mikeys, to see if Josh or you were their, because I was so furious I didn't know what I was doing

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So good job Tony, you won the "war" because this was a "game" that I knew about. Good job, you're the king of internet fueds, you get a gold coin, now stop

tony.HOODS in springfield september 23rd! says:

tony.HOODS in springfield september 23rd! says:

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sure, you get a gold medal

tony.HOODS in springfield september 23rd! says:

tony.HOODS in springfield september 23rd! says:

tony.HOODS in springfield september 23rd! says:

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no

tony.HOODS in springfield september 23rd! says:

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dude

tony.HOODS in springfield september 23rd! says:

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why, what in god's name is your problem

tony.HOODS in springfield september 23rd! says:

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your the most immature kid i've ever met

tony.HOODS in springfield september 23rd! says:

tony.HOODS in springfield september 23rd! says:

tony.HOODS in springfield september 23rd! says:

tony.HOODS in springfield september 23rd! says:

tony.HOODS in springfield september 23rd! says:

tony.HOODS in springfield september 23rd! says:

tony.HOODS in springfield september 23rd! says:

tony.HOODS in springfield september 23rd! says:

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Hey, I take your crap and you know that, that's what we do, we mouth each other, but talking about a dead family member dude, do you not see how wrong that is, and yes, I'm immature, but look at you dude, I'm being a man and trying to talk it out and you keep dishing your crap, you're just not understanding bro

This conversation keeps going on with more trash talking. I do have a job waiting for me at KY3, and the reason I don't have a job now is because I'm graduating in a few weeks, and I have to take a very long long test, so I have a lot of studying to do. And a lot of it does have to do with laziness, I'll admit that.

Anyway, for what you've read, who's the real immature kid? I know that I'm being immature for posting this as a blog and not letting it go, but I'm furious right now. I want to get opinions.

By the way, this kid and me used to be very good friends. Our typical day was mouthing each other, it's how we communicated, so it was all fun in games, however, I believe he took it too far.

Now, you don't have to take my side, it's okay, it won't bother me one bit, but I can't do a thing to this kid even though I want to so bad. I'm 18, he's not. If I do anything during school, I ruin my chance of graduating at semester--I can't do a thing about this. Plus, God wants me to persevere over this immature outburst and argumentive dispute, it's childish, I'm much stronger, I should forgive and forget, and as you can tell by my Msn convo, I was being considerate and very leniant, he doesn't deserve that, but God has something in store for me bigger than anything I can imagine, I'll wait and stand firm.

Also, as our conversation continued after this, all I was asking from his was to stop and apologize. He told me that he won't apologize for something that was not intentional and was a joke to begin with, that I started. What he doesn't understand, he talked about my deceased brother and won't apologize for that. So it's whatever, it's his choice, I can't make him do anything, but I'll be damned if he refers to himself as a Christian as his myspace says. He utter's God's name in vain and tells me this? No, he's the biggest hypocrite I've met. He'll get what's in store for him, he will get punished and regret this all. Karma does flow around, quicker than you think.

Thank you and God bless.

As my final months are coming to an end at Lebanon High, a euphoria of countless charades is leaving me with a mild living espression, yet a perseverance smile wider than the Pacific on my face.

It's been a rough four year's, but enjoyable nonetheless. Aquaintances have been aquired. The essence and aroma of knowledge has slithered into my mind. And last but not least, goals have been accomplished.

From weight loss, to having memories full of zesty and glee, and of course, getting my writing ability acknowledged by an employee of the school, which I've found to be my uncanny knack to make it somewhere in the road to adult hood.

If you know me, I'm not one to give myself credit, or bragging rights in lamest terms, but now, seeing myself into a different persepective, I noticed my robust virture of indescribable doubts from the minority of the school employee's, I can finally utter the words, "Look at me know."

The reason for those words is because, the first day of school, I had to write a paper discussing why others like or dislike school. The following day, she holds me after c1ass and discusses a few things with me concerning my paper. She said it was absolutely amazing, and since my teacher used to be a journalist and worked at the KY3 News Station, she's going to get me an internship at KY3, since she knows about my career choice.

Henry Ford once said, "Whether you think that you can, or that you can't, you are usually right." As I ponder about that genious quote, I'm stricken with an array of motivational quotes and movies, such as the infamous Rudy. It's really incredible to witness an unbelievable feat when a person keeps their goals and priorities in tact.

At the end of the day, hard work really does pay off for the better. Their can be indecisive moments of hardship that will put you at doubt, but as long as you stand firm, head held high, you will always have a heart of a warrior. People will watch you rise, because you're armed with determination.

So as my final words come to an end, I'll leave you with a song lyric that I use to live by. It goes as followed, "I'm pushing on right through your doubt, I'm going to follow my heart until my heart runs out; I'm going to do this for myself and nobody else, because if I don't live life my way, then I've failed. Open your eyes and open your mind, everybody lives their own life, don't be afraid to live yours; acceptance and understanding breaks the walls down." As I leave with those final words, keep in mind, anything is possible; preperation is equivalent to success.

Goodbye, Lebanon High.

--Johnny Rico

A friend of mine proposed to me a question a teacher of her's gave her; that question was, what does it mean to think?

This is what I have to say.

Well, "thinking" means, picturing a staus quo for yourself, creating an actual visual dream that can be accomplished. Contemplating the ways around the twining troubles, being creative in the most aesthetic way possible; our thinking gets us to higher places where our dreams can't handle. Thinking is dreams mere cousin, because if you dreamt it, you can think it, but instead of thinking of a mindless dream, you can create that dream into a state of reality.

That's about it, haha.