It's been 3 years since my last visit to gamespot, for study reasons I lost general interest in video games. I'm currently living in Canada, school work is very easy, there're basically no pressure from school what so ever. So it's probably time to pick up a game console controller again.

Sadly this is not gonna happen for at least the next 6 months, family's got some financial difficulties, and I'm lucky I can still get a laptop. But this laptop sucks balls, CPU is weak, and video card is terrible. And I don't think I'll be getting anything better until I go to university. So the only option I have now is...none! I can't play any decent current-gen pc games, I have no game console. I'm pretty much completely isolated from gaming. All I have now is a whole bunch of emulators, NES, SNES, Genesis, NDS, GBA, Playstation...it's good to play some old clasics, but I still can't wait to get my hands on some of the new games.

And yes I'm a person who is personally incapable of getting the minimum attention, no matter what I do, I get ignored. Online, offline, I slowly got used to that and decided to just do things I like. And if anyone hasn't noticed, I'm a very outdated person. Everything I do is usually more delayed than everyone else, I sometimes call myself the outdated gamer. Because I play games that have left their peak of popularity and moved on, or games that are good and old but not old enough to be considered all time clasic. A good example will be the ps2 Shinobi game, Shinobi is an amazing game, I won't go into the depth to explain it but those who had sat through and played it know it's an awesome game and a worthy masterpiece, but the thing is, pretty much nobody plays shinobi anymore, when I ask people have you played shinobi, they would go "oh yeah a few years ago", same goes to super robot wars, devil may cry 3, marvel vs capcom, etc. Why is that the case? Because everything is delayed, I played metal gear solid 3 four years after its release, I played halo fours years after it came out, I played doom 3 five years after I saw it on the shelf. This constant "outdatedness" muffles all the surprises I could have encountered throughout gaming. Oh so you'll meet the flood in halo, oh so Atlus was the final bad guy in bioshock, oh so Jill was the mysterious person in RE5, some of the biggest twists in gaming is nothing but a short blandstatement in the monitor of my computer.Considering that I care about games and I can't restrain myself from gaining more knowledge about them, I'll always be looking at spoilers, game guides, game endings even before I have the console to play the game with. Hell I actually knew the ending in mgs 4 earlier than my friend who had a ps3 to play it. It's just the way it is, I'm bound to be the odd one, the one who has lost track of his position in the video game timeline. The one who lives in the past not because the past was sweet, but because he has no otherchoice.