Okay guys I have a random little anecdote to share if anyone one is interested...

The other night I was round at Lee's and we were... well you know, lol, in the background we had his music player on random which probably has over 6000 tracks on it... which is not a good thing and I shall tell you why...

Talk about killing the mood, halfway through Frank Sinatra's New York, New York came on, this song always reminds me of the film 'Gremlins 2' so I sat up in a giggle fit... after a few minutes I had calmed down and we got back into the swing of things with normal songs playing that were more appropriate to what we were doing at the time...

Then suddenly... this was the clincher... if your not british you may not know what this song is but you must look it up because it's bloody hilarious! It must be the ultimate cheesiest song ever to grace our planet... and it came on in the worst timing in the world!

Does anyone remember it? The song was performed by and titled "Mr Blobby" (here it is I found it on youtube - www.youtube.com/watch?v=h37KQu64RY4)

Well I was in histerics, the song had to come off...

So today at work me and the girls and one guy who joined in our conversation were talking about bedroom antics and I happened to mention this story... I won't live it down because I'm getting numberous pictures like this come through to my emails...

But no matter how hard we tried to think... we could not come up with a worse song than this to have played at that particular time

So I'm calling out to you all now... I want to know the cheesiest songs you can all think of that would have been worse than this one!

Hope this made you all giggle! Peace out! Hollie x

A few posts previous to this I mentioned about a friend of mine I had known for years and recently we had been getting 'closer'

From the beginning we both decided to just keep it with us being good friends who occassionally have sex. He was moving away and he wouldn't be coming back because his Uni course secures him a job with heathrow airport as a flight engineer. So starting a relationship now wouldn't be fair on either of us.

For a little while I was happy where things are with us just being as we brits say 'shag pals' and just turning to him as a friend, but we've been spending a LOT of time together lately and feelings have changed and they've changed mutually, its obvious we are both very attracted to each other very much.

Bonnie figured this out and intervened both she and Lee were round at mine last night watching tv and Bonnie sent me a text on the sly telling me to leave the room so she could chat with him, so I made up an excuse to Lee, went upstairs and left them for a few minutes.

Anyway after I had dropped Bonnie off home and Lee had left I text Lee asking what Bonnie had said to him... this was his reply

"She was asking me to ask you out in a way, I said I don't know, but don't think so because I'm leaving for london. Yes we're happy together but we're also happy with the way things are now. I know you'd be happy with a relationship etc and I would be happy with you too, but it wouldn't be the right thing to do. Me leaving while we're like this will hurt you less than me leaving when you actually have me, then she asked me 'but what if it could work' you'll regret not knowing and I was pretty much saying how my course isn't a usual 3hr day uni life, it's hard work and very intense and I won't have time to make a 250mile relationship work. Going out with you now for 8 weeks would just be giving you unnecessary hurt and false hopes, but if you feel different then let me know and we'll talk" (btw longest text message I have ever recieved, ever!)

I basically agreed what he said makes sense etc etc, then in his next text he put something like the flight engineer title could take him anywhere in the world and he'd happily take me with him. I replied by telling him he'll love what he's doing so much he'll forget all about me but I'd love to go with him. He promised he'll never forget about me, i'm too special. Bless him

So... even with all that being said, him leaving will hurt me all the same now, I know he's just thinking about me and taking my feelings into his considerations, I'll now know what we'd be missing out on because it's something we both want, but stopping him persuing his dreams isn't fair this is what he's wanted for a long time and it'll make him happy.

He promised I could visit as much as I wanted and I promised I would go and see him from time to time.

Maybe when he's finished uni, and if either he hasn't found anyone else or I haven't found anyone else and I was willing to go to london, we could pick things up where we left them and see what happens... but for now it's just not meant to be...

I wasn't an angsty teen or anything but after reading the random poems Voidy had written on his blog I remembered a couple of poems I had written when I was about 16 or 17.

The first one is called 'Dead Inside' and it is just soaking through with teen angst, I never felt like at any point in my life the inspiration came from my cousin she went through a rough few years and had actually attempted to take her own life on several occassions but thankfully she is older and wiser now, has been through a lot of councilling and is such a happy person now days, so here goes...

It's getting lame, it's all the same, every single day,
My life beholds no colour now, just empty blacks and grey.
I lost all hope, all faith, all pride,
I've become so numb, I'm dead inside.
Bleeding and screaming, cursing and crying,
Clutching my chest and on the ground dying.
I couldn't stop myself; I've cut too deep,
I'm a lost soul; please put me to sleep.
I've looked into the mirror for so very long,
That I've come to believe my soul is gone.
I'm trapped in my life I cannot fly free,
Not letting me become who I wanted to be.
Imprisoned in this hell under constant rape,
I found the loophole, I found my escape.
I die alone and torn apart,
There's no point living with a broken heart.
The pieces of me brake down and shatter,
To sharp to fix, to small to matter.
No one will cry for my absence I know,
For I was forgotten so long ago.
And while I bleed knowing they don't care,
They'll wake up to find I'm no longer there.

See what I mean... dripping with angst...

Second one was actually inspired by the Buffy character Daniel 'Oz' Osborne and you'll see why it's titled "Werewolf"

Moonlight shone down on his sleek silver back,
He hunts in solitude,
He has no pack,
He raises his neck,
Tilts his head to the sky,
Howling at the full moon,
It's his lullaby,
Prowling at night time,
And in slumber by day,
He cuts between trees,
Hunting for prey,
He hears a noise,
And a rabbit runs past,
The wolf starts a chase,
Chasing ever so fast,
He's found his main target,
His gold star prize,
The wolf creeps in closer,
With a gleam in his eyes,
He has the pray cornered,
It can't scamper free,
He goes in for the kill,
It's his victory,
When the sun comes up high,
The very next day,
The wolf is no more,
But now a man where he lay.

Hope you enjoyed those 5 minutes of randomness there! lol

Peace up A town! x