07-29-2008 12:45:38

Why must my father get married? He has already ruined my life enough as it is. Why should he be given happiness if he has denied my and my family's? He shouldn't! Why does he have to pick her? Why not my mother? She was there from him. For us. And he wasn't. One of the two things he is good at; leaving and breaking promises. Oh. Three things: Leaving, breaking promises, and making things worse. And yet I was never good enough for him! Sure, I may not be his model daughter. But, he could never be proud of who I am. I am just a constant disappointment. No matter my accomplishments, I was never what he wanted. He wanted someone else. A different daughter. Maybe I am the reason why he left. Maybe I am the reason why he left my mother and brothers. Maybe it is because of me that we now have to suffer, and that my mother is ill, and my older brother joined the army. Maybe it is because of me that I am crying right now, thinking of was and what could have been. Maybe.

Love from,

Amanda

06-17-2008 11:15:43

Ok, dude. Life has officially decided to make me suffer.... My dad is getting remarried! So, now I will have not only a StepMonster. but a step-brother and sister.... Isn't that great!?! And, worst of all, my dad is moving to Ohio!!!!!! Life just keeps getting worse and worse!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Love from,

Amanda

03-29-2008 22:32:46

I'M ALIVE!!!!!!! Yes, after many months of drowning in schoolwork, I have come above it all!!!!!!! Ok, not really I still have another quarter to go.... But, I mean, come on! How much time should teachers expect that we put into our schoolwork? I have more important things to do.... So, anyways, alot of things have happened since... how long has it been??? Oh. NOVEMBER!?!?!?! Ol, that is messed. But, yeah. Life still sucks, but it has improved slightly since the beginning of February.... I guess. Hopefully, summer will bring something kinda resembling happiness... if that's possible.... Cyas all later!

Love from,

Amanda