Ok so now that I have let some of you in my world of fun. I have some more to share because I just want too . I am just a little shy when it comes to talking to someone that you like. You know what I mean right? That fuzzy sometimes itchy disturbing feeling.. I geuss thats the sign of your in love.. Well thats me in this case. I liked this guy for the longest time, I knew me and him could never be. Or thats what he thought but I thought diffirerent.

All my friends knew me of this funny crazy musical guy. The one who would make people smile well thats me! But to this guy that I was in love with thought of me of this very shy guy and just plain weird and not the good weird.. This was about that time I just came out and in my mind I thought it would be a piece of cake to get with any guy.. Boy was I in for a shocker. I just liked him so much, he was funny charming and cute. I confronted him about three months later after a date I think I had matured a little bit in the communication department. I had told him how I felt.. I expressed my feelings.. The answer he had given me was something that I just didn't expect.. I cried for hours sobbing, curled up in a ball on my bedlooking at my ceiling.

Later down the road, I pulled myself back together. I just knew me and him could never be. He just saw me as a friend and accepted that. I still like him even though I know he doesnt but people can dream right?

Questions..

1. Have you ever liked someone but knew it was never going to happen?

2. If you ever got with the person of your dreams and didnt work out at the end do you think you two would still be friends?

3. Have you ever told the person you liked, your feelings about them. And what was her or his response?

4. Did you ever have embarrassing experiences with the person you liked? ( Like trying to get them to notice to you but it completly fails at the end..)

5. If you saw the person you liked with someone else what would your first reaction be?

6. When do you know your in love, do you get any sensation of any kind? lol

I felt like for the longest time I was trapped in a shell, waiting to breakthrough then I did last year. About this time i came out well my friend helped me through this. So I have to thank her because if it wasn't for her I would still be stuck in my shell. Do you ever get that feeling that people, no matter what your descision's are in life they won't like it? Well for the longet time in my life I felt like I had to impress people but some still weren't happy. Now I don't give a crap what people think about me. I know what choice I made and im sticking by it. I feel though that I have been harsh for sometime towards people that were there for the longest time. I am sorry for that, I was basically changing my ways and in the process it kinda stung some people. They didn't understand why I was now gay I told them this was my life sty.le now, they still try to say that i will go to hell for my choice.

I am tired of empty threats, I want to be happy not be something I am not. I feel happier and so much spunkier lol. There is one person who doesn't want to believe that im gay and that is my mother. I will have to one day just sit with her and be nice about it and tell her that there is just nothing she can to do. Im me and this is me .

So there ya go if u didnt know i was gay here it is. Thanks for reading..

Questions..

1. Has anyone in your life, criticized you for your descision's in life?

2. If you had a secret in your life, and you wanted to let it out who would you tell?

3. Have you ever or do you know a friend that is gay and has he or she been, criticized for her or his descision's?

4. Do you support the gay community?

5. Do you think its wrong for others to be gay if yes then why?

Another day, but not just any day my day off from work ahhh.. I love having days off, from work who doesn't? I love to just sleep in bed all day, or just watch movies on my portable dvd player lol. I haven't been feeling the greatest lately and I needed to justrelax. I feel like im coming down with something, but of course im not letting it get me. Other then that it was a pretty good day, too bad I have to go to work the next day boo!! But after that day is done with I get another day off yay!!

Let Me just say that I should have done my laundry today, I just kept telling myself "hey it's your day off relax" So i did! I really should be outside excirsing, I need to lose some of these pounds lol. I feel though that life is too short to keep thinking about things and stressing about them, so sleep is my anti stress pill . I was suppose to go on a date tonight but again was far too lazy to go to it. Plus my date didnt have any money and I knew he would try to make me buy him things. He told me he didn't have any money last second. I was like forget it, im not going through that on my day off lol!!

So here I am blogging about nothing lol. The twist in my day was that I took out the trash wow got outside lol. So yeah there ya go! Thanks for reading!

Heres some questions if u care to answer..

1. What do you do on your days off from work?

2. Whats your fav movie to watch on your day off?

3. What was the worst date experience you have ever encountered?

4. Dont you love days off? lol

5. Do you like this question thing at the end of my blogs and should I continue it?