hi! i'm back. i like that i was an assassin and the job went wrong. that's a good one. i'll go with that.
my excuse? i had to get into grad school. it's like a marathon only with brain blisters instead of footie blisters. seriously. i got a little overwhelmed with my own insecurities about being smart enough, talented enough, strong enough, etc. i know this guy who tells everyone he's as gifted as Einstein. he's an ass. and i'm pretty sure Einstein didn't wander around telling everyone how freakin' brilliant he was. he was too busy, you know, inventing Calculus and Quantum Physics to have time to hang out in the local coffee shop trying to pick up girls by gloating about his own genius. does that work? can't imagine it works. sure i like smart guys, but i'll take one with a work ethic and a good sense of humor over an eogmaniac any day... that guy really bugs me. plus, i just want a coffee... don't make me sort you out. wow that was a serious digression.
there was a point here and it was that i wish i had a little bit more sense of myself. i don't want to be a big egotistcal blowhard who can clear a room in 30 seconds flat. but i have a 4.0 GPA (we're on a +/- system, so you know, i had and A- in Literacy Theory and an A+ in Holocaust Representations so it kind of evens out) so, you know, it would be great to just be able to relax a little and focus all my energies on research and writing instead of bleeding off all this plasma on worrying and fretting.
anyways, i'm back. missed you.