Sorry havent been in touch with anyone on here past while! Life has been really really crazy and unfair to me and my family!
Over last few weeks I've been struggling with some of my own problems and demons and things have been really hard for me and I've been putting lots of pressure on my parents and my brothers. Ive been doing things i dont normally do just to be a different person. Dunno why put i have. So im trying to figure out what is going on with me.
ALso its been really hard for us in my family last two weeks as my granny was placed in hospital for heart problems, her heart was racing too fast and thought she was going to have a stroke! Now im really really close to my gran and this really shook me and i nearly broke down when told that she was placed into intensive care and if her heart races again chacnes are she will have a stoke or heart attack and most likely die as a result.
Then after my gran got released, my aunt collapsed at home and was taking into hospital, were she was told that she has a black spot on her lung and thought it was TB. Luckly it was ruled out but are still doing tests to find out exactly what it is, they are doing tests for cancer on her.
Then this morning to top off our bad luck we received a visitor to our front door, to tell us that my uncle has dropped dead early this morning at home. Now im not that close to my uncle but my dad and my brother was and they are in bits at moment, so im trying to help out round the house anyway i can. I didnt know what to do so i dunno why i decided to tell you's this but i t just helped me release some of the feelings and energy i have been feeling over last few weeks and what im feeling now.
I prob wont be around again for a while! I wish this blog could be a cheerful one but to be honest nothing has happened recently for me to celebrate over!
Talk to you's soon
Sparky
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I hope your fam is okay, and that your gran and aunt will recover.
Take care of yourself.
*hugs*
And i know we haven't really talked in a long time,but don't try to change who you are! You're awesome as my little Leprechan...yes, you still are
you and your family have endured enough stress over the past few days to last a lifetime!!!!!!
I'm so sorry to hear of your difficulties, gran's and auntie's health concerns and untimely demise of your uncle.
Please know I'm thinking of you and sending all my warmest wishes and happiest thoughts.
****giant hugs from one redhead to another*****
im sorry! i hope that you gran and aunt feel better soon! im also sorry that these things are happening and you have to take them on by yourself. i know the feeling and things do get better, it just takes time.
but, you are doing a great thing by helping your family out and being there to support them, just keep helping out, and you will see a change.
my heart goes out to your fam! *HUGS 4 SPARKY*
Oh Sparky, I really hope that everything starts to go better for you and your family. I wish you and your family the best.
What have you been doing that was not you??!!! Nothing we could be blamed for I hope. And hun as far as we know, you don't need to change, we love you that way. Now of course in like 7 weeks then you might be a different person...
I'm sorry for your granny and aunt health problem and your uncle. I won't try to give big words since I have a vision of death and sickness that not everyone can accept. Just hope things turn the best for everyone whatever the best for each person might be.
HUGS
and you know we're there if you want to release some tension or energy (but you do want to keep some energy for... later
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).. dont change yourself... we love u being you... and dont u dare change!! Im sorry to hear about your gran... but the fact that she is now back home is a good sign right?? U'll just have to make sure that she rests up and looks after herself... im sure that u are the man for this job. As for your Aunt.. i guess all u can do at the moment is be there for her... until they know exactly what the problem is there is little point worrying (easier said that done.. I know 
)... Im really sorry to hear about your Uncle too... The fact that u are trying to support your Dad and brother and help out round the house shows that u are still the Sparky that we all care about so much...I hope we see u around but take all the time u need.. we'll all still be here (sad beggars that we are!! LOL) and u know where i am if u need to vent etc... **big hugs** xxx
Last two days have been hectic and today is crazy too! Not looking for tmw at all! Its my uncles burial then and well my dad is in a really bad state over it. Will be back on in few days! Talk then!
Hopefully everything starts to get better for you though. I'm on msn if you ever need to talk.
its ell! i know i havent been on this site for ages...months infact
but how are you???
it has changed heaps the layout and stuff...but im sure thats nothing new haha
x
pixie9696