Sorry havent been in touch with anyone on here past while! Life has been really really crazy and unfair to me and my family!

Over last few weeks I've been struggling with some of my own problems and demons and things have been really hard for me and I've been putting lots of pressure on my parents and my brothers. Ive been doing things i dont normally do just to be a different person. Dunno why put i have. So im trying to figure out what is going on with me.

ALso its been really hard for us in my family last two weeks as my granny was placed in hospital for heart problems, her heart was racing too fast and thought she was going to have a stroke! Now im really really close to my gran and this really shook me and i nearly broke down when told that she was placed into intensive care and if her heart races again chacnes are she will have a stoke or heart attack and most likely die as a result.

Then after my gran got released, my aunt collapsed at home and was taking into hospital, were she was told that she has a black spot on her lung and thought it was TB. Luckly it was ruled out but are still doing tests to find out exactly what it is, they are doing tests for cancer on her.

Then this morning to top off our bad luck we received a visitor to our front door, to tell us that my uncle has dropped dead early this morning at home. Now im not that close to my uncle but my dad and my brother was and they are in bits at moment, so im trying to help out round the house anyway i can. I didnt know what to do so i dunno why i decided to tell you's this but i t just helped me release some of the feelings and energy i have been feeling over last few weeks and what im feeling now.

I prob wont be around again for a while! I wish this blog could be a cheerful one but to be honest nothing has happened recently for me to celebrate over!

Talk to you's soon
Sparky

Hey folks!!!

SO how is everybody doing? Haven't been around lately, college exams are nearly done and dusted!!! Yay, last one is on friday evening at six in evening! Boo!!! But i dont care cause this time two days im gonna be finished my second year of college!! It's really really freaky to think that this time next year i will be finishing off my final year of college!! Well i have another year to do if i wanna be a teacher but we will see how that goes!!

Apart from college, life has been getting VERY interesting for me, in a good way and in a bad way!! Well doctors FINALLY gave me the all clear and i can go on a plane, for those of you's dont know i wasn't allowed because I have bad ear problems, but now i can!! Yay so im planning trips abroad now for next year and end of this year!! But bad news, with my left ear, my ear drum is kinda bent inwards and well if the skin grows over it, im gonna be deaf in my left ear, so yeah hopefully that wont be happening!!!
Also im going on a road trip at end of June!! Whoopa (its my new favourite word to say when something is good!! ) Heading to see a friend of mine down in Tipperary, thats over to the west of Ireland, so looking forward to it and then travelling up to Donegal and head on back down to home!!!
Work is work, nothing unusual has changed of my disliking of the place or the people in it but money is good, getting a pay rise after my birthday in two weeks!! So im happy enough with that!!!

OKay so enough about my life, onto the main focus of the week SUPERNATURAL!!!!! Okay so finale is on tmw night, will get to see it on friday morning, screw the exams!! and tell you i can wait for it!! Ive seen the clips, i cracked couldn't resist and OMG!!! does it look awesome!!!! I know its gonna be the talk of the summer for me to my friends and everything!! Im really really sorry but i cant make the finale talk cause i promised to go out with my friends!! But im gonna def def try to make it onto my friends lappie and go on for a while but i cant promise anything we will see!!

So how are things going with everyone? Havent been talking to anyone hardly, cause ive not been on here! If anyone does wanna contact me outside of here PM me and i'll give ya my email and i'll send it to you!!

Talk to you's sometime on friday during the day, will be on after i see it!
Talk later otherwise,

Sparky!!!

Hi!! *crazy wave*

Well what can i say life has been a bit crazy with me lately!! All shall be explained, paragraoh by paragraph!! bet you're regretting to start reading the blog now, huh?!!

Okay first off we will do college life first. Well it has been a pire and utter crazy past few weeks, its coming to the end of term, before exams now mind you and well I've had essays and essays to hand in and so it was pure hectic! But from 5 o' clock this evening I've been finished all essays, apart from exams of course, for this year! No idea how great it felt for me to finish the last essay, but i tell ya you know the expression, the worst is left till end, well dude it seriously was! I struggled so much to get the essay done, but i managed to BS my way to 2000 words!! I cant seriously cant believe that I'm nearly finished second year at college!! Its so sureal, i mean i'll be finished my degree next year!! But cant wait for the exams to be finished, roll on 16th of May!! Off then for about four months i think!!

Next work! Well I'm still stuck in the hotel bar and meh its alright but my boss decides for some reason when I'm at the busiest stage of college that he needs me three nights a week and wont give it to me off, well basically all its been is college/work/college/work for past few weeks and well no surprise that I've been running on reserved energy for past few weeks and well its coming to its end. I'll be there for the summer, although dont know if i really will be hack three months there again! Think I'm gonna be "sick" alot over the summer, if you know what i mean!!

Oh over the summer I'm going to this HUGE gig event, its like a four day music event. Its called Oxygen and i swear some of my favourite bands are playing at it! Me and a rake of friends, both from home and from college are going and its just gonna be pure crazy but great weekend, its not gonna be clean weekend, cause well its a camping event as well and well prob gonna be three days without showering!! Okay yeah gonna be nasty that aspect!!

I cant wait for Supernatural to start back next week, i mean its been what a month without it and we only have four episodes! Dude it totally sucks!! I cant wait for the thrid season to come out in August, they aint gonna release it in a two parter, cause if they are its gonna totally blow, i mean 8 episodes on each set, so not worth it!!

Finally and i know, it took me long enough put third part of my fanfic is here!! I cant remember what happens in it honestly, like i said everything has been mad!! You's will have to look at past blogs for part one and two if you's are interested in reading it!! Okay Spoilers aren't working for some reason! Really sorry!!

Talk soon,
Sparky

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Sam woke up and he could taste of his own blood in his mouth. He tried to move but he was tied to the chair in the kitchen area of the motel room. He looked around the room for a sign of the infected Dean, but there was no sign of him in the room anyway.

"Well I suppose that is a good thing" Sam thought. But what was more worried Sam more was where Dean was. Sam tried to wriggle his hands free from the knot but no luck. He tried to look behind him on the table to see if there was anything sharp and that was in his reach. Again he was not in luck as there was nothing lying on the table and when he thought about it he was not surprised.

Dean is a hunter he knows what to look for in these situations so of course he would make sure there was nothing that Sam could use to help him escape. Then he heard a car pull up outside, then a few seconds later the car doom close.

"Damn in!" Sam thought. He had no way of escaping and Dean was back, the only thing that he could do was pretend to be passed out. He closed his eyes and hung his head on his shoulder. The motel door opened and Dean entered the room and closed the door after him.

"Ah still passed out Sammy?" he said looking down at Sam. He had just come back from the hardware store and he had bought the items that he needed. He placed the plastic bag on the kitchen table and he went closer to examine Sam. He lifted up Sam's head by his long hair and began to pull it side to side.

"Wake up Sammy, you don't want to miss all of the fun I've planned" he said and he punched Sam across the face to the sleeping looking Sam.

When Sam felt Dean's fist connect with his jaw he wanted to open his eyes and bit his lips to take away the pain in his jaw but he knew that he had to keep up his pretending to being more than asleep, as he needed Dean to untie him if he was to get away from Dean and to help his brother, he needed to get out of the motel room and to the museum and to burn the ghost's army clothes. He had figured out it was the clothes of the solider as it was the actually only piece that was real and not fake like the rest of the items were in the museum as the rest of the other "war" goods were in way too good of condition to be over 200 years old.

"Sammy, wake up!" Dean said angrily and he began to shake Sam. When Sam didn't move a remorseful look appeared on Dean's face.

"Oh God, Sammy" he said and he ran to untie him. He loosed the knots and then he ran back to Sam's face.

Sam was ready for Dean, he knew even in that extreme case when Dean thought he lost Sam, that he was still not back to his normal self and it would only be a matter of time before he would become angry an resentful again. When he felt Dean's breathe on him he clenched his right fist, opened his eyes and swung his fist and hit Dean full centre in the jaw. Dean was knocked flat onto the ground and was dazed. Sam got up from the chair and ran to get the rope that Dean had thrown down on the ground when he released Sam. Dean was getting up again when Sam had picked up the rope.

"Wow Sammy" he said, but it was the corrupt Dean speaking "not a bad punch, that actually hurt a little."

Dean jumped up from the ground, swinging his right leg to kick for Sam's body; Sam blocked the kick with his elbow, while he punched for Dean's jaw again. Dean dodged the punch, by bending down and he placed all his force into his left leg, as he swung to aim for the Achilles tendon and connected with it, causing Sam to be swept off his feet and landing flat on his back.

Dean stood over Sammy, grabbed him by the shirt and started to punch him in the face, again and again, each time hitting harder and harder. Blood was pouring down Sam's cheek, under his chin and his shirt was soaking it up like a sponge.

"Come on Sammy, this wasn't the way Daddy thought you how to fight, oh no perfect little Sammy was always top in Dad's eyes" Dean saying in pure anger. Sam had never heard him speak so angrily to anyone in his life.

"Dean, please stop this isn't you and somewhere inside of you must know this" Sam said, blood stilling pouring down his severely bruised and cut cheek.

"Why did I come back for you in Stanford, should of let you stay by yourself and live your little perfect life with Jessica, oh right she would have died anyway right?" Dean said in pure anger and hatred for some reason.

Rage grew inside Sam, regardless evil or not, Dean was not getting away with saying. He blocked Dean's arm, lifted his right leg, kneed Dean in the chest, pushing Dean back a few feet, getting up like a flash he darted for Dean, punched with his right, then left, right again and then lifted his right knee into himself then pushed out his leg, side kicking Dean with all the force he could. Dean was sent flying back into the table by the force of Sam's kicked. He tried to get up but Sam was already over to Dean and this time he made sure he would knock Dean out and so he put all his strength into his fist and swung for Dean again. After his fist connected with the Dean's jaw, Dean fell back down completely and he was unconscious.

"Sorry Dean" Sam said, looking down and he saw the red mark which would turn into a bruise on Deans jaw.

He ran to the bathroom, turned on the tap and began to splash the water onto his face and rubbing off the dried blood mark on his cheek and onto his when he saw the blood on his shirt, he took it off and began to wash off the blood on his chest. He ran back into the motel room, grabbed a clean shirt, placed it on and looked down at Dean, still knocked out on the floor.

Sam bent down and reached into Deans blue denim jean pocket and pulled out the keys to the Impala, grabbed his jacket and he was on his way out of the door of the motel.

"Dude I've got to put a stop to this and I think I have finally figured out how I'm gonna do it" he thought himself as he was outside the motel door.

He ran over to the Impala opened the driver's door and hopped in.

"Let's just hope this will save Dean too".