Hello everyone,

     I would like to thank you firstly for taking the time to just read this blog. That small thing means a lot to me. I never thought i would have to apologise for who i am. I have always followed the rule that people should never apologise for who they are. Whether they are a murderer or the kind lady across the road who has been attacked several times.
Being who you are is something no one can ever take away from you. But today i realised that who i am seems to affect many people. Most of that time good. yet sometimes bad.
For my stupidity i pay the price of having to carry others emotions along with me. I am not complaining i got myself into this mess so i have to get myself out.
I know i have not been on here in a while. It is not through ignorance just through the fact i have had plenty on my mind and i got sidetracked by another site.

I am not going to tell you my life story. Or the problem i seem to be holding because i realised that the only people you can trust is yourself. Putting your trust in another human being sees to much for me at the presice moment. I cannot trust anyone through the damage i have recieved.
I do not blame anyone but myself. I let this happen to myself.
So i guess your all wondering why i right this blog just to ramble on and take up your precious time.

Well i will tell you , i am writing this blog because i want to show you that you may feel like your alone and you have no one to turn to. but you all do. Do not turn into me and realise you can trust no one. You will feel isolated and hurt all the time.
I am pleading with you never to let that happen. I am always here for any one of you. I seem to have a gift with being able to listen to others so please let me use it .
 I know soon i will regain the trust of others but i am deeply hurt to take notice of others wishes at the moment so i am not being ignorant. Or i am not being selfish. for once i have to sort out my own mess .

I hope to speak to you all soon.
I wish you all the best of luck with the following week. Thanks for listening to me moan. It was nice just to say all of this.

Cya you all soon
Fab x