hm.. well it's been awhile since i blogged.

maybe i blog rarely because really, i have nothing clearly to say. That or i may think too much. Do i really?
See, i'm not as sure as you are. but it doesn't stop me from moving on. it just goes with me
what does?
i'm not sure. free writing, free verse. there is a word for that. I'm not quite sure how it goes. That's just one of the reasons i should pay attention in english clas*(for some reason gamespot opposes that word due to html stuff)  In any instances, my life has been lately consistent with random
house boredom. I've been spending alot of time on video games once again. Maybe because social life has been aggravating. The highschool drama is quite something. And really, i'm getting shyer i think.
Hm.
It's also funny how i'm losing friends. Friends who i thought might be there for awhile with me. Then again it may be my fault we no longer have that "friendship." Though what defined that "friendship"? i'm thinking now it was all just physical attraction. What made me want to be friends with them to begin with?
sadly enough i'm talking about friends who are girls. Am i looking for a relationship? maybe i am. maybe some attention too. I am writing this blog.
Maybe one or two would read this, but i guess it helps me breath a little. haha, i'm really starting to think i'm getting desparate to find someone to be with. Deep inside i really think i'm just aching for someone to L.O.V.E.
Or it can also just be hormones. who knows. but really, i want something more than physical touch. That's just not me. Hell i may know myself better than anyone else. but really, i barely understand who i am.
Here i am, making judgements to people and telling them what's best for them when i can't even give myself an advice to help myself.
It's aggravating. I'm surprised i wrote something so long. Today has been odd indeed.
From seek to imagination trying to open a bible at church through my mind (telekenisis i suppose, yeah i'm weird.) and now this blog that doesn't really explain much about anything except i'm a confused teenage boy.
Well, i bid you farewell.
Till then to whomever.

-je