For some reason, I noticed something at the bottom of my window when I started up my pc today to converse with the outside world…but ironically, I am now trapped in some translation (which this I am typing in doesn't seem so formal with it – leaving me free from change). I am not typing this in that little blog box, I can't even write anywhere outside of this without being formal to the simplistic English I am use to, so I am typing outside and I am now pasting in wherever I need to; consider this a translator so my English isn't turned into some mixed up Japanese…I have no idea if this was my brother's Japanese, since he's fluent in it – but not me. (big sinister grin

Lost in translation, or trapped…I sure hope this doesn't happen. I am so thankful something here isn't perfect. Use of old tools though of being scrap turned to use, ideal example of refining the lines outside of the common good and upgraded. I think it might've been some harassing upgrade for firefox a while back. In fact I just went to check this box that has all this stuff; not accessible outside of the browser. I will try some internet explorer next and see if it's a function for browsers, or just a unique tool (damn you firefox)…..

Indeed it is firefox, I am very ungrateful for all this…I don't know how it happened. Just writing for some unions, took a break, come back to check something on like youtube…Japanese!!! I can't understand Japanese, like I know "Ikuzo" or "Sakura" but if you spell that out, does that come out to Japanese written (Kanji?)…yeah, I don't get it, but I hope I'm not lost in translation. I suppose I'm gonna have to work with IE from now on. Oh, yeah, Damn you IME

ばか　ばか　ばか　ばか　ばか。。。ばか。。。ばか。。。ばかばかばか！！！

When I think about life and all the things in it, I think of what it means. I think about your (self) being, your status as a person, your job, your possessions, you as a person being what makes you what you are. As well as with friends, or family, tying in together to be there around and so family has a purpose of uniting. To say, sometimes it feels like family isn't always there...so extends the hardships of reality. Lost Odyssey values a fact that whatever journey of life that makes an impact and makes you what you are diminish, probably why it resembles much of the game (by being immortal, all faces through time pass on)

I write this not to say peaceful happy thoughts, but truth and a dark tone of myself. So don't expect something great out of this, I'm writing so I can say better who I am and what I'm experiencing. Out of, what...like 6 billion people; some good and some bad, some weird and some straight minds. Out of that, not enough seem to make me very consistent in preservation...I lose track of things and I find myself bothersome, I guess by being outgoing is not quite the same as feeling as outgoing, you feel spontaneous to go out but unlikely you don't feel like going out there and finding nothing. I guess sometimes the best place to find friends is where minds think alike. Sure I can I enjoy eating food, but does that make me feel better when I dine out someplace alone, hoping someone feels the same? Or could it mean that everyone or anyone I see there at the place I'm dining at, just need some food? I know there's a place that has lots of gaming news, and for the most part, I have found a bunch of friends...but meeting people in my eyes is just tough. It's a Lost Odyssey out there, you might be what you make of yourself but the true odyssey is not what you make of yourself, but what you discover by others. I might be a little absent minded at this time, consumed with thought over action, but I can't possibly meet someone on the street and expect them to understand a simplistic talk I give; nor for them to fully understand my languid tongue of speech. Find someone out there, that's great. Finding someone special, such like a love find, that's hard...girls are confusing, but at least a lot of them come here and talk their mind, which is great. I can find someone who understands what I mean when I say "Fable 2 is going to be a impressive game" here rather than somewhere in like a Church or Bar, but meeting is more the experience.

I'm not lost, I'm just not too out there to speak my mind in church saying Mercenaries 2 is godly awesome. I can't relate to someone in a bar how fun it is to get wasted, and then relay to them how much fun it is to play Fable and get wasted, while you're actually wasted (double dose of WASTED). I can't speak about sports games to people at a sporting event because in reality, I can't play sports (I have a condition, with my arms! Yes, plural) but nor do I desire to get out and watch them truthfully...the essence has faded like little action figures with guns.

You can call me a total geek, I've spent my time here enough on the web or with video games that I understand most of a system, like using Java Script or understanding IMG codes (same thing with Javascript). I fail in most parts, because simply by not being understood out in reality, I'm too consumed in here for my intentions. I'm a geek, yeah, I know what that's like. But like a person who has affection towards "same-sex" partners, I'm much more deeper than that and am not all what it seems. Call them gay but really, they're just like anyone whose not understood because they vote democrat or republican; green or blue, yadda yadda. I'm totally geek but I'm not just that, I have a dog, drive a car, don't have a job (i'm still working on that). Before my job, I used to think one way...after meeting a bunch of different people, I now think a different way about people. And I used to let people manipulate me into so, I would mimic anyone else, til the point I decided...my odyssey truly was lost. I need to be found by those that understand the same thing. I guess church doesn't help much since I believe in God and the Devil and all thoughts swayed one way dissatisfy me; and other. I don't believe in going to bars and comforting my pain when I don't believe drinking down booze at 8 bucks for a 8oz glass solves problems, or makes you feel better, or sober will help you in anyway. I guess it's what I don't believe in what other people say that make me like a sore thumb in a glove. I don't believe in war, nor peace. I don't believe in one color. It's my Lost Odyssey in life, where I need to find people who are no longer hiding, to be found. I need some support being here couped up all day is not doing any better. I suppose I guess I just ask that if, before I die, somebody at least look at something terribly f*cked up and say something that might be positive. The world is a messed up place I say, but hey...it's earth, it's got some of the beautiful places around the globe and the worst part is, everyone's so afraid to explore...I would gladly toss down my life here in America and just move away from it all, just like my brother somewhere in Japan...I am finding america, a little less like home. Lost Odyssey? It's not here anymore it seems, it's gotta be out there wandering where my mind is squandering all its existence. I would love to be American, but frankly I'm feeling more like going away to explore something else, like Ireland...

In life you can be one thing, or you can be another, in most cases in between, you could be both (cop, counterfeiter, a counterfeiter cop?)...sometimes it's easy to do, sometimes it might. But narrowed down to games, it narrows you down to what you like. I used to look at myself back some years with the upcoming x-box 360 and said to myself cool, but lacked the sense it would've been great. I had my eyes set for a PS3,...and hopefully a Wii. I wanted to be that person who had the best of everything without owning an x-box, I wanted Mario, I wanted Solid Snake...I wanted to have my personal best experience with games. Now things have changed, I desire not what I wanted but am comfortable with what I've got. I have no sets in my eyes to own all 3 platforms, not even 2...I am narrowed down by the fact I have a x-box 360 and enjoy it.

Pushing onwards down the topic...you can be, or you cannot be. It's a decision, it's a state of mind, but it could also be an addiction. This has pretty much to do with PC gamers, whatever they're called. The PC systems are build with a larger scale of games in mind, though ports do come along and are equally sized as to those with platforms, sometimes they will extend certain things like weapons, armor, or even quests (with console ports). However, such games that are familiar with PC are generally those ones that create a massive audience of members (members, not gamers, since they have to pay a fee)...these games like Everquest, or World of Warcraft, or some other types that pass my mind, these are where you lie, these are the games that make you - or don't. You could play world of warcraft, like it, and continue with your life...but a lot of people are so drawn in that it makes no transition, no breaks, no stops (unless pc goes boom). People are constantly going in and going on so their attention is fully drawn into whats going on with the game and the screen, people push on and become their actual character inside the game. This is a degree of gaming addiction at the finest tip...you put so much into character development that even the little hairs dangling in front of your character MUST BE PERFECT TO YOUR TASTE. World of Warcraft has lots of players...okay, Millions of players, but are they gamers at heart, or are they WoW-zers at soul? I speak aimless for anyone who might be a hardcore WoW player, same game, same rules, same old song and dance. It could be a new experience, if it changed the theme of literally everything. There's a transition I make from playing Rock Band to going to Guitar Hero 3; that life flashes before my eyes, that I don't see a flowing chart that shifts into a makeover Guitar Hero 3 song...I see what lies in between a game from a game - reality. I wonder if players on WoW had to change discs, would it create a more subtle session to pause for a minute and put the kids to bed, feed the pets, do your dishes?

I don't fit in that category of gamers, same old. I shift in the balance of games...very frequent and sometimes sporadically but I keep the tone that there's games and there's life. I change what I feel like playing, keeping a little sense of excitement going on from shift to shift; I don't watch horror movies if I expect them to be action packed, I don't eat cheeseburgers if I feel like chicken, I won't play Warcraft if I feel like nothing is to be gained. I could make friends there, but it's not real (they're real, but a fictional sense?). Warcraft might be the biggest named game right now, but frankly, I don't care (won't play it...won't look at it, though I did test it once). I'm not the person who lives life by the cable, trailing along through life, one game...one life...one wife...one car, house, dog, pair of pants, pair of shoes. It's not the fact that there's a one of everything in the game, it's the balance that there's so much more. I am not committed to one thing, I like hot dogs but also hamburgers. I like to mix it up, F*** my world beyond all comprehension til all that glitters are the embers of the charred world. My life, it's chaotic, but my desires to expand, surpass one game. Guitar Hero 3 vs Rock Band..I scoff, and get them both! Who has to settle on one given thing? I don't, it's a good sense of personality that way, it adds characteristic towards yourself, and not your toon!