The title is a lyric from the song Dead! by My Chemical Romance. They are one of my favorite bands, and I highly recommend you check them out.

Happy New Year I suppose, though I don't really see what all the fuss is about; it's just another year like the last one. I guess you'd all like to know what my resolution is, but I don't have one. I don't believe in making resolutions, because anything that I'm going to promise to do isn't going to require January 1st to make me commit to doing it. Besides, no one ever sticks to their resolutions anyway, so really, it's a useless practice. *shrug* Some of the people in my life have made resolutions though, and good for them if they stick to it, but there are some floating around out there that I think are just ridiculous. *shakes head*

Happy late whatever-religion-you-follow-Day as well. I got a lot of good presents; Final Fantasy IV, some nifty jewelry, a Yoshi DS case, and a cute stuffed Koala Bear, just to name a few. *grins* All of my gifts this year were handmade crafty types due to a lack of funds, but I think everyone enjoyed their gifts fairly well just the same. *nudges Nel* Right Auntie Nel? *laughs*

I would like to pose a question for debate: Do you think it would be worse to be told you were never allowed to have something, or to have it for a while and then have it taken away from you? I personally think having it and then losing it would be worse because then you've had a taste of what it was like and now have to live without it, whereas if you'd never had it, you wouldn't know what you were missing out on. I pose this question because I find myself in such a situation and I must admit, I'm not very content with it, though there's nothing I can do about it. I don't fault anyone for it and there's no one to blame really, save for perhaps myself, but that doesn't make it anymore enjoyable even if I don't have any hard feelings about it. :/

There isn't really any other news to report upon; my life is excruciatingly dull. I suppose I have no one to blame for that but myself as well, but alas, I find myself almost chronically sad and very much un-wanting of most social interactions. I blame the weather and my consistently stuffy head for the sadness, but we shall see if the spring brings with it the warm feelings as well as the warm sunshine.

Until something interesting happens,

-Gizmo-

The title is a line from a song by Fall Out Boy. Look them up, you might just thank me later, and if not, well, that's your loss my friend.

Let's talk about Beginnings, Ends, and Infatuations in the middle.

Beginnings: Birth, the cover of a book, the opening credits of a movie, on your mark, get set, go. The Beginning is where you sit in anticipation of what is to come. You've got no foreknowledge of what might come, only plans, hopes, wishes, dreams. The Beginning is where you get to pretend you know how things will end, it's where you get to believe you've got it all figured out. The Beginning is where your delusions end however.

Ends: Death, The End, the copyright laws, "and the winner is", goodbye. The endings are where you look back, having all the information you gained over the course of time, and realize how incredibly wrong you were back at your Beginning. Nothing worked out the way you planned, hoped, wished, or dreamed. In the End you're left with whatever you've managed to salvage, whatever glimmer of good you've managed to pull out of the crap you've just witnessed. The End is where you finally grasp the full appreciation of reality.

The Infatuation: Twilight, Sword of Truth series, music, love. The Infatuation is what you spend all your time on between the Beginning and the End. It's where you screw everything up, or it gets screwed up for you. Some infatuations last minutes, some last days, some last for the duration. The length of time doesn't really matter, what matters is how you work on things to make them salvageable in the End.

I realize this may sound morbid, negative, depressing, hopeless even, but it really isn't; it's just the way things are. You have to pick around in the jumbled mess at the End to see what's left from the Beginning that's still valuable and decent. My current infatuation is the Twilight movie, which some of you have no doubt heard about at the very least. It's based off the first of a series by Stephenie Meyer; they were an infatuation once upon a time. You should all read the books, they are somewhat young reader, but they are nonetheless amazing.

Happy early Thanksgiving.

Yes, today happens to be my birthday, my 19th birthday to be exact. Nineteen is an awkward number I think. You're an adult, but still a teenager. You can vote, but not drink. I have a feeling, this year for me, is going to be a tough one.

I don't want to get older. I decided a long time ago that growing up is overrated and I have no wish to take part in it, but of course, life wins. *rolls eyes* I'm usually excited about my birthdays, but this year, I dunno, I just wasn't hyped about it. It seemed like just another day to me.

Sorry this blog was short... I just don't seem to have much to say these days. That or I have too much to say to type it all out. *shrug*

Happy Birthday to me, happy birthday to me, happy myself, happy birthday to me.

-Gizmo-