i had a job interview on monday for another internship and i got message today that they've decided to not take me. i'm rather relieved about that to be honest. why? the job description said that they were looking for people being interested in tax law and the law concerning foreigners. when i first applied i thought that the subjects at this internship would be devided equaly beteween these two areas of law. unfortunately i was mistaken. turned out, that tax law is only a tiny little part and the huge part are appeals against decisions in the law concerning foreigners. after i had found out, i really had a hard time sleeping because i wasn't sure if i could cope with that. it's one thing to expel people from switzerland who have commited a real crime (even though i consider myself to have quite a differentiating view on this subject and i don't think that everybody deserves to be expelled) but it's another to maybe throw out whole families. i've never before been so very nervous before attending a job interview because at the moment i didn't know if i really wanted to do this or not. i can see myself working in the field of law concerning foreigners but on the other side, at a relief agency maybe. working for this court of appeal would have been a huge chance to see the counterpart and to really learn a lot about the way they work. the "funny" thing about it is, that i would have had to use a law i had been fighting against many years ago. i decided to play with (almost) open cards and i asked them about how difficult it was to cope with the emotional part of this job and the tragedies you might be part of by the decisions made. i suppose i got a really honest answer because the judge interviewing me said that there are times when he can't sleep at night even though he has been in this job for a very long time. after the interview i was even more hesitating about how to decide if they would actually offer me this internship. today they called me and told me that they had decided to employ somebody else since they had felt that i would have a hard time coping with the emotional side of the whole thing and i guess i've never been that happy before for not having gotten a job offered.

i know that i can stay at my recent internship until the end of august and i was told that they are going to try to prolong it further after that. so for some time to come i'm actually going to have a job but i have no idea about things to come after that. i haven't written a lot of applications so far. i really don't want to make an internship at a law firm so the only other possibilities left are courts because i'm going to need 6 months of internship at either one of them. the next job offer at a court is due in the beginning of november and after that in february and of course i have no guarantee that they're going to accept me there. so right now there's a lot of uncertainty and i guess another phase of unemployment waiting. on the other hand, things have always been working out for me in the past when it comes to jobs and there always was sense in one thing not working because there was something much better coming along soon afterwards.

so, please wish me luck (if you're not asleep by now ... ) !

long time no write so i just wanted to let you know, that i'm still alive ...

life right now is a lot of work and a lot of thoughts about things to come. originally my internship was going to end in the end of june but since i haven't got one to continue with, i asked, if i could stay a little while longer. i was told that of course i could but unfortunately only for one more month because of another trainee to come but in the meantime they've offered me to stay 2 months or even more. that's wonderful and i'm not in a hurry. i just love it here. people are great and the work to be done is really interesting. problem is that if i wanted to work here for good, i'd have to take an exam to become a laywer and for that, i'd have to do half a year of internship at a court or at a law firm. truth is, that i always was hoping for not having to take this exam because it seems to be incredibly difficult, forcing people to not do anything but learning all day long for about five months.

when it comes to tv shows there isn't a lot to watch live right now except for "doctor who" that has only two more episodes left this season. so i'm watching all of season 4 of "24" (before that i've seen season 5) and i'm planning to watch season 6 and "weeds" after that. any more suggestions? this is going to be a long summer and i'm really running out of stuff to watch.

switzerland - portugal 2 : 0

well, i know we're out, i know, that portugal didn't throw in their best players, i know that the ref wasn't all fair towards to the portuguese ... but then again, i'm delighted we have won this one, switzerland had all the luck that had been missing in the games against turkey and the czech republic and i'm happy for our coach köbi kuhn and our goal-keeper pascal zuberbühler for winning their last ever game with the swiss national team. that was a worthy departure even if it came way to early.

congratulations to portugal for having qualified for the second round!